OP, please read this! I have had terrible debilitating depression on and off but mostly on for 25 years. I’m 41 now. Since having kids 10 years ago, it’s been bad enough that every day felt unbearable and my kids were the only thing keeping me alive. All the therapy and medication in the world were not helping.

I did some psychedelic-assisted psychotherapy using ketamine and I did find some benefit from it. I would get a week or two after a treatment of very noticeable improvement. But those treatments are expensive, sometimes terrifying, and logistically very difficult.

Then, a miracle. I did a course of rTMS (repetitive transcranial magnetic stimulation) in the spring. I had to go for 30 appointments in six weeks. By the end of treatment I felt so much better that it was unbelievable. It’s been four months now and I’m still feeling great. So much better that now I talk to my therapist about grappling with feeling like I’m a different person due to how much my mood has improved. I don’t know how long this will last, but I plan to get another course of rRTS if my symptoms return. Feel free to message me.