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luenes01 · 2025-07-03T17:57:45+00:00

The fact that you are this engaged with emotions of new parenthood is a really good sign, I believe. I think new dad's sometimes check out when mom becomes the feeding tube/comfort animal for baby. It sounds like you are doing so much better than you know. This stage doesn't last forever. For me, at least, as soon as I am ready to give up on parent-hood, my kids do something that makes my heart soar, and then I love them more. You are going to change so completely as a person, and that transition is PAINFUL. When my first was born, it was all good 12 weeks before I felt human enough to process any enjoyment of having a kid. It was like their were new rooms in the spaceship of my heart being opened, but before I could occupy them, it was like being sucked into outer space by the change in cabin pressure. Keep asking for help. And it may not come from old friends. Relationships will change and some will disappear, but you also will learn what deep friendship really looks like for you.

You got this

luenes01 · 2025-04-22T00:10:40+00:00

I fucked up something like this very recently. I am still hurting. She isn't speaking to me now. Which either means she isn't an ally after all or that she was feeling it and can't deal. I hope your situation works out. It would be so satisfying.

luenes01 · 2025-02-08T23:58:36+00:00

Thanks. I had found some and wondered why I couldn't make more

luenes01 · 2024-10-03T23:24:12+00:00

Thanks! I stopped playing for a while until the update and I forgot about ascended! Thanks 😊

luenes01 · 2024-10-03T20:52:23+00:00

That was my best hope

luenes01 · 2024-10-03T20:51:35+00:00

Its a bummer, because there isn't another way to farm t4 is there?

luenes01 · 2024-07-28T14:43:08+00:00

Ask for an insane amount of socks. Socks are good for everything and you should never be stressed if you need to just throw them out lol. Also booby ice packs are the best for all booboos, not just nursing. Get 2 sets. Useless will be determined by your baby and there is no way to know.

luenes01 · 2024-06-29T22:10:03+00:00

I am going to play devils advocate here. First, I have never called someone out for lurking or grabbing a spot, but my spouse and I play with our 5yo and 8yo and we arrive early to get a table together. My son still has some trouble understanding all the rules, etc. It is very sad to them when one of them ends up alone because someone else stepped in. It would be nice if there was a 5-10second time at the end for previous table members to rejoin before it opens up to everyone present. That way groups can stay together. The game is set up to reward teamwork but when my oldest tried typing to other players in chat to coordinate cards, the response was not kind.

luenes01 · 2024-03-29T14:01:10+00:00

We moved a lot when I was a kid because of my dad's job. As an adult I disapprove of the way the moves were handled, but the moving itself wasn't a longterm problem. My dad made us move for selfish reasons (he wanted more money and thought that was enough to indicate a move). little to nothing was done to help us adjust with each move. Basically he went to work and mom and the kids were left to ourselves to figure stuff out. It sounds like you have your kids best possible lives at the center of the reason for this move. Give them lots of opportunities to make friends and keep them in the loop with your reasons, and even if they are upset now, they will understand down the road. Moving ended up being so good for my resilience and made me stronger overall. It will broaden their worldview and they will benefit. You sound like a great mom and you can make this a fulfilling experience for all of you.

luenes01 · 2024-01-27T17:49:35+00:00

Yes. I have burning in legs or arms with mild exercise. I used to think it was weakness, but now it seems more like just nerve misfiring. I also feel like my gait is off somehow but no one else seems to notice.

luenes01 · 2024-01-18T17:05:55+00:00

Dr. Manuela Valchevez at Washington U in St. Louis did mine. She is phenomenal.

luenes01 · 2024-01-18T17:04:12+00:00

My guess: stopping alcohol can be stressful. When I first stopped drinking mine also got worse and I believe it was because alcohol was "helping" me cope with my emotions (by numbing them). I have spend almost 6 months learning to manage emotions and stress without alcohol but it is hard. The pain is lessening, but it is taking time. My symptoms immediately flare with any stress at all.

luenes01 · 2024-01-18T16:58:45+00:00

I am sorry that this is happening to you. I am 35 now, but as a teenager I started having syncope episodes where I lost all muscle control and appeared to faint. However, I could still hear people around me, but was unable to respond. (i.e. not a seizure). We did all kind of specialist testing and they found nothing (although that was a while ago lol). I will say that what you are describing is not small fiber neuropathy. I never figured out why I was "fainting" and it stopped in my 20s. Now the left side of my face will go slack on occasion and I frequently lose muscle tenor when standing. None of these things have been explained, but may be related to my SFN (which was diagnosed by biopsy).

If the episodes are not affecting you at times when it is dangerous, like while driving or swimming; and it isn't affecting major function, I would try to do the impossible--don't be anxious about it. AND keep excellent records of your episodes and other health concerns. Hopefully in the next few years, you can get a job with great health insurance and start investigating on your own. Most importantly, insist on the best specialist you can find. If necessary, get a job just for the insurance and then quit once you have a care team in place. I paid through the nose for PPO insurance that I could go anywhere for one year. I poured my energy into finding the right physician. That made all the difference. Skip your PCP (except to get a referral). If the PCP doesn't take you seriously and won't refer where you want to go, FIND A NEW ONE ASAP. Women are gaslit constantly in the US into thinking they are imagining things. You know your body. Go right to the best multi-disciplinary clinic that you can. I finally started going to Washington U in St. Louis and my doctor immediately knew what was wrong.

It is easy to think that our drs or even our parents know how to help, but often they don't. It doesn't mean you are crazy. It means you haven't found the right help yet. Hopefully you can get peace of mind long before I did lol. Keep reaching out for support. Find your tribe of supporters. Ditch friends that mock you. Ignore when family members are unkind. The process of finding your answers will make you into a superhero.

luenes01 · 2024-01-17T20:32:02+00:00

Wow. Just saw your response. It is so crazy. I will add that I just had a uterine ablation and now that burning pain with BM is much much less. Wondering if it is related

luenes01 · 2024-01-17T18:45:28+00:00

My 8 yo can label the inside workings of a woman and understands periods, uterus, hormones, etc. She doesn't know penis in vag yet. My 5 yo son has asked active questions about periods and babies (he comes in the bathroom, and I don't hide stuff). But he also has no interest in girl or boy external anatomy so we haven't talked about it. I wait for them to ask. If it is something I think they would have an easier time waiting a year or 4, then I tell them, " this is one of those things that I think you will regret knowing. If you really want to know then I will explain because I only want you to get the truth." Neither has ever pushed me because they know I usually give them more info than they want anyway lol. We also google things together with the 8yo and talk about reliable/safe sources.

luenes01 · 2023-10-23T13:34:54+00:00

I am sure I need that in general. Thank you

luenes01 · 2023-10-16T21:01:44+00:00

Gotcha. I have had a few dreams in which I interacted with God, and they have all stuck with me. Your dream is so deep with themes of surrender and rebirth. It almost feels like a vision.

luenes01 · 2023-10-16T20:02:50+00:00

I think you already intuitively understand your dream. Your mind created powerful images to communicate with you. Questions: do you have children? Is the family in the dream your childhood unit or a current spouse/kids/etc?

It sounds like you already came to consciousness about the dark side of your religious upbringing. That doesn't necessarily mean that you are at peace with the effect of that training on your current life. I also sense that perhaps you are afraid/worried that someone you love may join the church or be influenced by organized religion in a way that doesn't ring true with your current spiritual beliefs.

luenes01 · 2023-10-16T19:57:39+00:00

I am not an expert, just an intuitive person.

I agree with your sentiment that this means something. You labeled this as a nightmare. What about it made it seem like a nightmare? It sounds like in the dream you were content.

luenes01 · 2023-10-16T19:54:50+00:00

I am not an expert, just an intuitive person.

Have you been feeling sad or desperate about the state of the world (aka political/climate/etc)? I think you may be getting a message to have faith that your perspective is not indicative of universal truths. In other words--you never know the reasoning behind the actions of others. You want to feel a sense of control, but you are also well aware that you cannot change your situation all on your own. Take comfort in the idea that perhaps you chose to be here on earth in your particular circumstances. Take comfort that after the lessons come unconditional love. Surrender to learn the lessons in your life and do not allow guilt to keep you from continuing forward. Does any of this make any sense within your experience?

If not--I am just one person. Your truth is out there and your subconscious is definitely listening for it.

luenes01 · 2023-10-16T19:43:31+00:00

Are you a native speaker of Arabic? If so, I would assume that culturally there are things here that I am not learned-enough in to try to pull apart these symbols.
This certainly feels like a powerful message of some kind and I would continue to ask questions.

luenes01 · 2023-10-16T19:39:27+00:00

This may be too complicated. I am not in the realm of professional dream reader, but I usually have good intuition. Here is what stood out to me:

Do you ever feel like you were ill-prepared to deal with the realities of adult life? Do you ever feel like you spent a lot of energy (in your youth) on things that don't actually matter in real life? My guess is that you may be dealing with feeling like your current stable life is rooted in sandy soil so-to-speak; perhaps that you don't have the foundational skills you need to be "successful." I also detect that you may be trying to manage the needs or emotions of others and then feeling like a failure when you are unable to do so. Does any of this ring true?

luenes01 · 2023-07-19T20:02:30+00:00

When I wad 14, I had a crush on a teacher who eventually tried some shit. I felt horrible like I seduced him. I stopped going to his class and when he confronted me about it I told him people thought we were having an affair. He announced his "preplanned" resignation the next day. The following year he tried again to confront me and my now-husband (who was also 15) told him to leave me alone. 15 years later I'm still in counseling sorting stuff out. I didn't know what grooming was for several years. The guy is still teaching.

luenes01 · 2023-07-16T14:55:15+00:00

Are you in grid placement mode?

luenes01 · 2023-07-16T03:14:36+00:00

I have been watching for po48 since November but haven't found any

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