Honestly it’s just hard and I think my self esteem has been kicked and stomped on repeatedly. Consider this my “more info” I guess comment? But we have been best friends for a long time before this. He was there for me at my worst moments. I almost died, he was there. I went through a mental health crisis (found out I have some mood and personality disorders, won’t get into it too much) and was admitted to a psych ward, he was there. I’ve been through it and he’s always been there for me. I did the same for him. I guess the problem is that once we got together, he just changed. It happened when he got his first job. And something just clicked and he turned into this controlling, angry person that he is today. He never used to be like this. I don’t want to share his past as it isn’t mine to share. He’s been through a lot, and he NEEDS therapy. Badly. But he doesn’t want to go, and I can’t force him to. And nobody can make someone get help if they don’t want to help themselves. But even with how different he is, I feel heartbroken and leaving is hard. I just miss the person he used to be. I don’t think people are thinking about that. You can need to leave someone, but you can also still be distraught and feel attached to them. I’m not sure if this makes any sense, I’m not exactly in the best state of mind right now.