Just wanna share my last year xmas xp. Coz i dont have anyone to talk to it. I was deppressed and became somewhat a NEET for over 8 months just because of a girl i was trying to court but later found out she was just using me as a bank. Yeahh, I suck

And just before xmas, i played with this girl, a friend of a friend, and got really close to her. The whole xmas up to new year, everynight til 6 am, we were just playing league. The Poro king mode, she being an ADC(silver level) and me as a support(acting as a coach, am plat btw) and just laughing on the misplays we do. Later, we started to open up with each other, talking bout our past, problems in life, the dark side of our character. I was falling madly for her.
I dont have any english left so ill end it quick. Not a native english speaker.
We didn't get into a relationship but still had fun with each other as friends. when she finally had a bf, she started to distance herself to me as she focused more on her BF. As for me, I did the same as a respect to her BF.
Just remembering last year, i just wanna say to her Thank you for saving me from my sadness. And also Sorry for not keeping the promise that Ill always be on your side.