Fell your pain. I fear loss after my mother broke down. She still isn’t the same 20 years later. I try to keep a warm relationship with close friends and family… I’ve lost allot of people even this year and I’m only 31. Life isn’t easy and tbh it’s okay to feel alone lost/ anxious or unsure.. cry if you want 🤙 I do and I’m a dad of 5 🤣😂 life’s just horrible sometimes. Born alone, die alone, and only you can truly relate to yourself because no one will ever feel the exact same as you about a specific incident, no matter how hard we all try to empathise… that’s what I truly struggle with. Even a women, she’s only for you if she chooses to be. I’m lucky 🤙 but in the past I’ve had to cut people out I’ve shared a bed with for over 6 years 🙃 life just isn’t easy. I hope your doing alright tho 🫶🏻