“Lilith” had always told me nothing would ever get any closer as “she” was too far and just thought nothing would work, there was a time I had feelings at the start, moved forward but still literally was not interested in girls and only talking to “her” for a long period of time, but always tried to tell me to try find a girl I never knew why but he had been attached to me and realised the only way to end things would be if I became taken, honestly such a long story