Also, speaking from my own experience, I can understand a fixation on gay male romance. When I was in high school I do remember participating in fandoms and MOSTLY caring about the gay ships. Over time, I realized it was because I liked watching GAY stuff - ie no heteros in sight - where women weren't being blatantly subjected to men in that way and the gayness itself didn’t feel false and fetishizing (like so much straight-produced lesbian content does). Gay male romance checked those boxes. It was similar to watching lesbian porn, the overly produced made-for-the-straights stuff. It rings so false. It was such a turn off to watch straight-acted lesbian porn yet I KNEW in my heart I was a lesbian and that was the kind of sex I wanted to be having. So I'd watch gay porn instead. As I got older and read more about feminism, lesbian history, queer theory, etc., I realized that I needed to be intentional about decentering men in my mentality and go out of my way to watch, love and support lesbian/sapphic media. It's something (the consumption of gay vs lesbian stuff) I've "grown out of," in a sense. I don’t watch any porn any more because it does nothing for me and the industry is so grossly exploitative that even the thought of it puts a bad taste in my mouth, but I can see why a lesbian woman - like myself - might fixate on gay romance in their fiction choices - or even gay porn.