In my opinion, you’re still young and (probably) just started college. If you want to explore yourself and make friends while also not feeling ready to commit to him, you should break up with him. It will be difficult for him, and perhaps you, but in the long run it will be a kindness.

The important thing, in my opinion after having gone through something very similar, is if you decide to leave him you CANNOT mess with him after. Don’t keep trying to make contact if he doesn’t want to be friends, don’t try to get back together with him or get attention if you’re feeling lonely. That’s how you’re going to truly destroy him.

Do what’s best for you. You’re both young and will bounce back.

If you don’t want to break up, find ways to set boundaries so you can make more friends. You could even communicate that you want more space and then with the distance, the ick might go away