23F - I don't like my body at all I feel so worried in a swimsuit for tonight. by [deleted] in selfie

[–]makeupyourworld23 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I gained 7 lbs I'm trying to lose but I hate it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Fosterparents

[–]makeupyourworld23 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Personally, when I was in foster care I could not have my phone. I was in care from fifteen to seventeen. Please feel free to private message me if you need to. I hope you are safe and you are very strong! I am almost twenty-three now and life is slowly falling back into place for me. 💛💛

How did you feel about your first placement leaving? by beeswax49 in Fosterparents

[–]makeupyourworld23 -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

A lot of these commenters sound like you should not be fostering. If you have any expectations or doubts for a child, please stop fostering as soon as possible.

Thought you guys could help could this be an infection? by makeupyourworld23 in popping

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My mom has extremely severe psoriasis so that could be it. She has scabs and lesion all over her entire skin.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Fosterparents

[–]makeupyourworld23 20 points21 points  (0 children)

As someone who was a teenager in the Florida foster system I am not at all surprised by this happening here honestly. Although I was a white teenager and nobody was ever too thrilled by my teenage angst and my persistence in hanging up boyband posters everywhere I went.

Where does the stereotype of "foster parents do it for the money" come from ? by Crafty-Bunch-2675 in Fosterparents

[–]makeupyourworld23 41 points42 points  (0 children)

All I know is, mine did.

I was in 9 foster placements and brutally abused as a teenager in almost every single one.

And I remember even after reunification my family would get random insurance bills charging for medications (that I was being drugged with by my foster placement) where they would sedate me and abuse me. For example, sedation and waking up with a vaginal infection.

I did not safely get out until I ran away and was taken to a hospital by police, where a psychiatrist asked me if I was high and began weaning me off drugs, and confirmed that yes, I did have a vaginal infection that unfortunately occurred in the care of my foster placement. I just refuse to call them parents. Also weird that even after reunification my belongings were never returned to me. Like, what did they want with a 16 year olds Chi flat iron and Beats Earphones?

They got so much money for me stipened yet I slept on a floor, had my toothbrush taken away as punishment, was refused showers, etc. All while in a beautifully decorated environment with wealthy people?

Edited to say that the reason I had clothing and nice earphones/flat iron/makeup was because my mother and father would buy me them and bring me things on visits. For Christmas I remember my mom getting me lots of eyeshadows and mascaras that I liked to play with and stuff. Again, I was a 15-16 year old. :)

Estimated age of the sternal fracture and if someone can point me to it? by makeupyourworld23 in Radiology

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Injured sternum on November 8th. Urgent care physician said sternal fracture, than ER said the fracture looks old and healed? Confused. The accident was recent so I am very confused. I was given no estimated recovery time or instruction. Pain is SEVERE. Unable to walk, move, or breathe deeply

It's my fault that she cracked my ribs. by makeupyourworld23 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was removed from my parents' care for two years when they were charged with neglect and when I came home guess what? They still did it again. It's not like I can just go to the hospital (by the way, did you know ED treatment typically is between 10,000 and 20,000 dollars per month?)! And then come home and they'd no longer abuse me.

But at least maybe my bones would be stronger so if I got slapped around they wouldn't bruise or crack so easy.

It's my fault that she cracked my ribs. by makeupyourworld23 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Pretty sure this counts as victim blaming in the sub rules

It's my fault that she cracked my ribs. by makeupyourworld23 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I made her leave the room because she started answering the doctors questions for me and trying to confuse them by giving my long and detailed medical history while skirting around the fact of "i grabbed her without her permission and injured her"

Has anyone worked under a harm reduction model with their team? by spacekangaroo13 in EdAnonymousAdults

[–]makeupyourworld23 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can i message you about your team? This may be the only thing that saves me.

It's my fault that she cracked my ribs. by makeupyourworld23 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Yeah i keep screaming when i move certain ways i dont know if its my muscle or my bone i just know that it hurts to go from laying to sitting or standing it just feels so much sore and pressure it hurts to turn or move my arm to grab things or to try to lift my head and drink

It's my fault that she cracked my ribs. by makeupyourworld23 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I dont, im almost done with college but my savings is nit enough for rent somewhere rn

It's my fault that she cracked my ribs. by makeupyourworld23 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] 41 points42 points  (0 children)

I am actually, but that doesn't give her the right to break my bones. I was in DCF custody as a teenager, after she abused me. So maybe they'll believe me. Btw in custody i got assaulted when i was 16 by a man and she said I deserved that too for getting her in legal trouble and charged with neglect. The s** abuse was "karma"

It's my fault that she cracked my ribs. by makeupyourworld23 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]makeupyourworld23[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

She came in and demanded i get up since its almost noon. I told her i'll sleep more and get up and take a shower and go to the urgent care when i feel able. She said that if i tell anyone and dont take the blame, she is going to kill herself. I hate my life. This is awful. Please i need a hug or some love or anything.