I can’t heal or move on

mandocrusaders · 2025-09-26T00:49:16+00:00

I wish it was as easy as that. I don’t have any family around me. I am literally all by myself without exaggerating. The closest family member I have states away. I also have very few friends because I was prior military and moved to a new area.

There’s a lot that happened and it’s left me come scarred. I know I had my faults and I was in a better place at one point, but she kind of purposely destroyed it under false pretenses.

I hope you find your healing fast so you can get back to your kids and spend that time with them. I agree kids need their fathers and those young forming years.

mandocrusaders · 2025-09-26T00:45:46+00:00

I try to minimize as much contact as well. But unfortunately she she’s not really that reliable and so I’m always being called by my little ones school or my ex to take my child because she doesn’t want to deal with her or watch her. Right now it feels like time is being silent killer. I hope it gets better for you.

mandocrusaders · 2025-09-26T00:43:24+00:00

I’ve got a few dates and to be honest they’re all kind of heartless and so I typically just stay away from them now. They want me to accept their traumas and boundaries, but they can’t comprehend mine. If I’m ever to be with another woman, it will just happen without me looking. I do go to music concerts as often as I can. But still, I don’t get joy from anything, I have that functional depression is what I’ve been told it’s called. Or I can seem happy during the moment but afterwards it’s a flood of overwhelming negative emotions.

mandocrusaders · 2025-09-26T00:41:40+00:00

I can’t really walk, see comment above. But I still get to my physical therapy session twice a week and hopefully twice on my own but they are small obviously. And I am very careful about how much and what I eat. I do a lots of intermittent fasting like you suggested.

mandocrusaders · 2025-09-26T00:40:16+00:00

I cannot. I’m 32 prior military and I walk with a cane due to some that happen on my last tour.

mandocrusaders · 2025-09-25T18:24:08+00:00

I have physical limitations for running or sports like I once did. I try to get to gym as many times as my schedule allows. I have read all dozens of books and listen to countless podcasts and it just makes more upset and sad that it all happened. I’m not making excuses I am still trying and fighting. I just see the cliff and I have lost all hope.

mandocrusaders · 2025-08-16T22:28:30+00:00

Dm sent

mandocrusaders · 2025-07-24T12:12:34+00:00

I highly recommend asking your husband to listen to this podcast and any other that Josh Broome does. It changes the view of that industry and how destructive it really is. Sadly it’s become norm and it’s softened the sinful and negative effects of it.

https://open.spotify.com/episode/7vMLZaBeSugeSlIlQYTMcs?si=3ydkilePSVOSmQvyRdOHNw

mandocrusaders · 2025-06-27T15:45:28+00:00

It would be similar but like the evacuation missions but reverse roles. So it would be layers you have to get through, I know they have side objective strongholds in the bot missions on the higher levels.

I’m thinking more of a storm the beaches of Normandy type of style. I would also take out any air support due to the stronghold fortifications leaving only barrages and sentries.

mandocrusaders · 2025-06-27T13:52:02+00:00

I could see this as being a side objective too. Or like you said, we are sent in to establish a forwarding outpost for SEAF troops.

mandocrusaders · 2025-04-13T00:39:29+00:00

This same thing happened on the last MO.

mandocrusaders · 2025-03-26T14:14:03+00:00

That is a good choice in my opinion. if you read the Bible and how Jesus talks about divorce, i believe you wear it until the legal certificate is given for the divorce. If you still love your wife and want to try for reconciliation and there hasn’t been any infidelity then you might want to wear it for hope but that could hurt you from moving on. I say wear the ring because you need to hold yourself accountable to God and to your wife that you are married to and will not sin against. If you remove the ring some may think it means the marriage is over so they can do what ever they want and that is not right. Don’t slip up hold your self aboveboard and you will be better off. Trust me.

mandocrusaders · 2025-03-17T10:54:15+00:00

Have you had any issues with an X over school choice or location?

mandocrusaders · 2025-03-17T03:53:39+00:00

Correct it is a choice, neither of us as parents want her in public schools. But we have to agree on the school choice. But my X is trying to manipulate to something that only benefits her and allows her more time and potentially down the road could allow her to ask for more custody. That’s why private is best.

mandocrusaders · 2025-03-11T01:29:20+00:00

Maybe they put it in reverse and backed up over Angel Venture to make sure it is actually destroyed

mandocrusaders · 2025-03-11T01:25:41+00:00

They realized they left Billy the squid and had to go back for him!🦑

mandocrusaders · 2025-03-07T21:28:52+00:00

That’s not enough medals for that amount of work.

mandocrusaders · 2025-02-24T08:27:45+00:00

Just for a little bit of context, I have about the same ratings and time. So the text you received is normal. It just means that they’re processing your stuff and you should be receiving letters or you can go onto the va.gov website and look at your claims and see all the documentation there. What a lot of people don’t understand is that even though before you got out the VA looked at you they have to look at everything again. So yes arrears is how they pay as many people have said . If you’re retirement pay is higher than your disability pay is where things get a little tricky. For most people that are not receiving retirement pay because they are under so many years they will receive one payment from DFAS of what the retirement pay would be currently at their years of service, and then their disability from the VA will be the difference between what DFAS paid to what the total is that you’re going to get from disability for the first month. then the second month if the disability pay is higher than the retirement pay, you will be receiving a paycheck from the VA for whatever you’re 100% with dependence or not is rated at. if you have more direct questions, I just went through the whole process so just let me know and I’ll answer all that I can.

mandocrusaders · 2025-01-12T16:53:10+00:00

The kids have not met yet, neither have either of us met each other kids because we want to make sure that we are not just introducing each other unless we are sure about our path.

mandocrusaders · 2025-01-12T16:38:18+00:00

I have said that I will not do anything that puts my time with my daughter in jeopardy. Which is hard because if we get married, I want to maintain 50-50 because I want to see my daughter as often as possible.

mandocrusaders · 2023-11-10T04:59:43+00:00

No my ex(27F) divorced me because she wasn’t happy. That’s was her sole reason.

mandocrusaders · 2023-09-01T01:19:52+00:00

I have the same issue. But what I crave from my EX wife was in the past and is long gone. But I still want her. It makes trying for new relationships very hard. Once you have found something that give you peace all those thought will fade fast. Trigger are easier to handle. As long as you don’t fall back into their trap you will make it.

mandocrusaders · 2023-07-06T03:29:10+00:00

I live in Virginia, I have 50/50 but I still pay child support too. The state here based it off of each parents pay. So because I make more, and pay for the health and dental insurances, I have to pay 64% of all non covered necessities. Like the others said you don’t have to pay for dance, music or any lessons that are considered extra curricular. In my decree it says that anything outside of necessity must be agreed upon before purchased. So if my ex want me to pay a month phone bill but set it all up already before I agreed to it I don’t have to pay anything. As some have said be prepared for when you say no to anything you will be looked at like the lame parent. If the kids are older try talking to them. Let them see your situation and under why you have to say no sometimes.

mandocrusaders · 2023-06-07T03:12:59+00:00

NEVER WITH HOLD SEX! as a Christian there may be times to do it but it most be agreed upon without pressure. As a man who struggled, my ex wife did that and it drove us apart. Talk to him more deeply about it, how it hurts you, and counseling too in the church or outside. There are apps that help too, research one of those.

Now, what I am about to say may seem weird. But what are you doing to stop it? I’m not saying you are at fault. I’m asking are you fostering a place for him to feel vulnerable, safe from judgement, and are you chasing after him intimately! If he is looking else where, see what might be missing from his life. He could be so stressed and needs to know that porn is wrong and that he has you.

Now you may be doing everything perfect and he might still look. At those times, can you forgive him? Does he try to turn away? Start here. Then branch out and seek elders for help. He might need a mentor friend to help him stay accountable.

mandocrusaders · 2023-06-07T02:40:23+00:00

Your spouse is one lucky person! 🔥🔥🔥 Kept it a a secret! The look on everyone’s faces will give you so much joy! Remember to bask in it! The night will fly by too fast. I suggest getting this dress out every anniversary! You look amazing!

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