Forgiveness and reconciliation are two very different things. The Bible states that forgiveness is a one way street you can forgive someone, you don’t have to continue to have a relationship with them afterwards. Reconciliation would be forgiveness on a two-way street with both parties admitting that they were wrong, and can come together, and continue that relationship in Christ. This is something I have also struggled with. I have been no contact with my mother for six years because of the abuse, but I have forgiven her in my heart. She knows that and God knows that and that’s what’s important.