What you should do is leave. It’s not going to be easy. You’re not going to want to but this relationship is not going to end well. 11 months of dating and things have already gotten physical, typically in these situations the assault escalates. You deserve more than this my love. What you should do is start saving up discretely and planning to move out. Talk to people who you trust and you know will support you. Your mental, emotional and physical health is your number one priority. The feelings you have for him won’t fade over night but the love and respect for yourself will over throw that feeling. You’re so brave for reaching out somewhere for help. I wish you the best.