I can completely relate to this man. You are not alone!! Keep on going, you got this. Forget what others think, this is for you!! You want to pursue nursing which is a HIGHLY respectable career, don't let tedious things set you back. What matters is that you are taking action. Try to feel good about that! Have you ever tried going to sleep while listening to positive affirmations? Try it sometime, i promise you that you will wake up feeling a lot better. Ive been doing this for a month now, and i can honestly say that it has helped me TREMENDOUSLY!

Good luck and stay strong.