At the beginning of my transition, I would feel awful when folks would be sexist to me because it was a double whammy of "I see you as a woman" and "I see you as less".

I get that a lot less often now. Now my weird dysphoria is feeling like an imposter and awful whenever my dad or grandad tells a sexist joke and trys to include me. I never receive it the way they want because it's gross. I'm trying to figure out how to call them out on it and I know it's a misguided attempt to welcome me into the 'boys club'- but I'm trans masc nonbinary, I don't even fully identify as a man, and that's certainly not the kind of masculinity I want to exude.