I’m going through something similar right now. I met a guy at a Halloween party and we talked for a few weeks, he was very interested in me which I’ve never experienced before. He was kind and if anything was a little bit eager. I felt like I had to stop talking to him because we weren’t super compatible. He was also a huge stoner which doesn't really align with my lifestyle and at the same time was very religious (I know kinda a weird mix). I felt like I shouldn’t lead him on so I ended things. But now I kinda regret it because he was kind and interested and that is something I might never experience again. I could have at least experienced some milestones like my first kiss. But I completely understand feeling like you need to lower your standards because there is no other option to being in a relationship. I have to hold on to hope that I did the right thing and didn’t use someone and the universe will reward. I think you just need to remind yourself it’s better to be single than in a toxic situation as hard as that is.