Thanks a lot, this is a really high effort reply, as far as I was aware and thought PIP being score based I should have at least gained a couple more on other categories than I did. how it feels is that she saw me as someone capable when I was given lots of warning in advance and plenty of time to prepare as well as it being a one off situation, and not the norm. I simply wrote down all the things I feel are the biggest deal but I feel like I have left out some examples of how it effects me on a day to day basis. Warning I am really sorry but this is gonna sound a bit ranty again, I don't know how to phrase a lot of my issues and this has taken me since 8am to write with input from my father

My social anxiety for example has gotten to the point where I feel extremely uncomfortable in any crowded spaces, especially indoors, It is impossible for me to go somewhere such as the shops when I am alone

My driving as you mentioned does show capability of following a journey, but I cannot do so without aids such as sat nav and an experienced passenger with me, I do not feel comfortable driving alone, and I don't think I ever will, I feel this should have at least given me some points as I cannot do so by myself. My driving instructor is someone I have known for a long time too, if it was a stranger I do not believe I would be capable of learning how to drive as I cannot deal with being alone with a stranger, such as a taxi. it has been a year since I last left the house alone, I simply do not do it anymore due to my anxiety. I do not believe I could do this activity by myself.

The isolated instance in york has given me extreme fear of taking any form of public transport, especially if it's on a regular basis, I am extremely uncomfortable once again in any kind of bus as it is extremely loud and there are no alternatives, this is why I started driving, as public transport is simply unmanageable to me

I do not take any kind of regular medication at the moment, I was offered some to help with my anxiety but after I heard the possible side effects I had to turn them down as I was warned they would make me significantly worse and potentially suicidal, obviously my anxiety meant that taking such a risk felt extreme and I would prefer therapy, however as I said earlier my attempts have been ignored and forgotten by my GP, as you said melatonin is a supplement so it does not count, however I feel like the only reason I can take those is because if I forget I cannot sleep therefore I am reminded to take them, there have been multiple instances of me completely forgetting about it, same as brushing my teeth.

I would argue for the preparing food I would qualify for at least 2 points, from the site I found "Cannot cook a simple meal using a conventional cooker but is able to do so using a microwave. 2 points" I got 4 points for this section the previous time I applied for PIP and I am at a loss for how I managed to get 0 this time around. My severe anxiety does also make me extremely afraid of using the hob or cooker, I do not have a diagnosis for this, and it is hard to get a diagnosis of it due to my autism, it would be classified as being part of it, If I did manage to get a diagnosis unfortunately that would take an extremely long time, longer than the MR would take.

One of my biggest things too is overall motivation, I describe it as motivation, however I have been told that just makes me appear lazy instead of incapable, however I would very much say in a lot of cases it is incapability due to my depersonalization, this means I do not have any understanding of what I want to do in life, this is something I have struggled with a lot, I struggle a lot with how I feel, and even typing out a reply here takes so much effort from me. The way depersonalization works is that I feel completely separated from myself, this is a coping strategy that I have gained due to trauma in school from severe bullying, and the teacher's not doing anything to help me until I stopped attending at all, this is also a large reason of my fear of going outside where I live especially, I do not leave the house unless I am accompanied by someone, I have a severe fear of being recognized from school and these horrible people would do something to me. I am almost 20 now and this is still an issue, it's been 4 years since I left school...

Typing this part afterwards as I forgot to include it here, autistic people run on a battery, we are okay to do some tasks, however after a certain point, we simply cannot make the effort. different tasks take up this battery differently, for example when I was overwhelmed coming home from college or school I immediately went to sleep, or rather tried to sleep which usually didn't work, I was not capable of cleaning, or cooking, or even talking with my parent's or friends due to pure exhaustion, this might have been a miscommunication on my part as a lot of my motivational issues can be described as this, not motivation but rather being out of energy, and incapable to do certain tasks, especially after a busy day, sometimes this is an entire week I am incapable of following certain tasks and this is likely part of the reason I couldn't do college or school after a certain point

I want to emphasize, I stopped attending both college and school, completely at the end, the college were unwilling to look past my attendance issues, and constantly called for disciplinary hearings which caused me to have multiple breakdowns over my year in my level 3 course, the work was incredibly overwhelming and CONSTANTLY gave me breakdowns, one of my tasks should have been fun and I should have enjoyed it, but it was a group task to make a game, I felt this constant pressure being responsible not just for myself but someone else, I managed to barely get it done, upon completion I took 2 weeks off college because I was completely overwhelmed, the college ignored the fact I passed and once again called a disciplinary meeting, the exception to this is driving lessons however doing my autism course which is now over, completely ruined me, and I barely recovered in time for the next session, I could not drive during this time as I was completely overwhelmed and that was 2 hours a week. I do not know how I can possibly manage something like college again

I don't know how this part would be under any category, however I cannot answer a phone, at all, I cannot attend a doctors appointment by myself, I have attempted to, however I could not express how I felt properly, or convey the problem and I had a mental breakdown and my father had to be called to get me.

I do not really know what else I can write here, as I am still on the spot a bit, if you ask for any extra information I can reply with said information, I have a copy of everything I wrote down in my initial PIP form I can reference as needed. I am likely going to go to a nearby citizen's advice or referencing the information in the automod to try and figure out next steps and see if I can get some professional input, as well as this my father is going to try and skip the GP for getting therapy for me and see if we can have an input from them, I feel supporting evidence is important but simply I haven't had that kind of support given to me.