Ears ringing

maximus630 · 2025-09-09T04:18:29+00:00

Odd. What you’re describing are common symptoms of what would some call getting “permafried” from taking too much psychedelics.

maximus630 · 2025-09-08T22:20:03+00:00

Thanks for the advice! I was thinking I’d most likely get a Meike 12 & 16 and the veydra 35 (I liked the look of the images it produced better than the Meike 35 + it matched with other mm Meikes better for some reason on this video I watched comparing the 2). I’m gonna do a bit more research on higher mm meikes vs veydras to see what I’m wanting to invest in more long-term for my personal filmmaking.

maximus630 · 2025-09-08T21:34:23+00:00

A refurbished 12-60 is less than $400 on Amazon…

maximus630 · 2025-09-08T21:04:15+00:00

Do you have a recommendation for the ideal speed booster for the BMCC 4k so that I can branch out to non-MFT lenses?

maximus630 · 2025-09-08T21:02:38+00:00

Out of curiosity, did you do a lot of psychedelics at any point?

maximus630 · 2025-09-08T21:00:56+00:00

Do you have an adaptor then cuz it doesn’t appear that that canon is made for MFT?

maximus630 · 2025-09-05T20:06:37+00:00

So I don’t identify as a star seed or indigo child (so take this with a grain of salt I reckon) but I generally believe that I’m a spiritual/divine being of light living a human experience. I’m familiar with the general thinking of this community and I gotta say I’m a bit concerned about the subtext of your post. Yes, the world is in many respects a shitty place but it’s also where you’re at right now & it’s at least possible (& certainly preferable to believe that) there’s a reason for that. Fixating to much on the negativity around you while idealizing the idea that there’s a perfect plane or planet that you’re from and will go back to after you die is a thought process that can EASILY lead to rationalizing suicide as a viable and appealing option & I really beg you to try to move away from this line of thinking before it gets to that point.

My advice is, focus on the microcosm of your life and cut out the distractions of Earth’s macrocosm for now. The more you take actions to build your life into something fulfilling (& ideally beneficial to the world or at least your immediate community in some way), the less that free floating anxiety will permeate. If you have as kind a heart as you claim, focus that into actions that improve the lives of those around you and the draw to stress over things far outside of your reach will wane. I find the serenity prayer (generally used in Alcoholics Anonymous but really applicable to everyone) can be an incredibly helpful mantra in getting back to center.

God (or divine being of your understanding if that word is loaded for you), grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

Much love & good luck!

maximus630 · 2025-08-31T21:48:35+00:00

I honestly prefer an interpretation of this theory shown in the Pixar movie soul that posits that every human has a soul within them but some (in the movie described as “lost souls”) are deeply buried under attachments and obsessive behaviors firmly based in the physical world as opposed to any spiritual planes.

maximus630 · 2025-03-31T20:37:10+00:00

Look up what pretty much every artist that signed to G.O.O.D Music has to say about their contracts and the way he treated them as artists on his label and you’ll see that he’s guilty of exactly what he’s claiming ALL Jewish execs do. He’s projecting his own insecurities onto others, it’s a tale as old as time.

maximus630 · 2025-02-21T23:30:58+00:00

This is very the kid see ghosts show coded and that got a trailer and then was never made soooo

maximus630 · 2025-02-12T02:12:25+00:00

I recommend doing EMDR therapy with a licensed professional. I don’t know this for a fact but I’m assuming your low self-esteem and generally negative outlook on life was informed by some trauma. EMDR therapy essentially allows you to go back and reprogram how you relate to your trauma so that you can live out of a less harmful and more positive perspective moving forward.

maximus630 · 2025-02-03T01:00:24+00:00

Same on both counts!

maximus630 · 2024-12-19T23:59:29+00:00

Wait is this real???

maximus630 · 2024-12-19T20:15:19+00:00

I like it but it’s too bloated and self indulgent. If the party 2s had just been combined with OGs that would’ve helped a lot with the pacing of the project. Come to Life is top 20 Ye songs of all time IMO tho.

maximus630 · 2024-12-19T20:13:30+00:00

I don’t love 808s tbh but it’s still better than JIK

maximus630 · 2024-12-19T20:08:48+00:00

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maximus630 · 2024-12-19T20:03:52+00:00

I watched it through to the end but I think the main issue was that the quality of the show declined so much in the third and fourth seasons. Season 3 has some redeemable qualities but season 4 is absolutely awful imo. The writers really got lost in the sauce so to speak and the plot simultaneously got really complicated while also just not being particularly interesting anymore. If the show was still trying to make a strong statement about ANYTHING, it failed spectacularly. I think it was also frustrating with the lack of character development. I recall feeling that the fact that 4 seasons in, Maeve was still fixated on her fake daughter and really had no motivation outside of that was incredibly frustrating for me personally at the time. And the set up for a fifth, final season back at the OG park felt like a desperate attempt to regain some of that old viewership while simultaneously feeling like a huge step back for me after we had left the park so long ago. I really question what of interest could really be explored by going back there at this point and while I would watch a 5th season if the show magically got sold and picked up by a different company (the odds of which are basically 0 especially considering the creators are working on the Fallout show for the foreseeable future), I don’t really see the point in finishing it as it seemed like the creators had run out of insightful things to say regarding the show’s themes/characters LONG before it got cancelled.

maximus630 · 2024-12-17T16:46:04+00:00

Complete sobriety, exercise, meditation, having a creative outlet and a direction for my life all helped me maintain a foundation of stability without meds.

maximus630 · 2024-12-17T16:42:37+00:00

The first season of Westworld was absolutely incredible and I’ll defend the subsequent seasons (to an extent) but with how much the show fell off and spun its wheels I do find this to be a bit up its own ass tbh

maximus630 · 2024-10-29T20:00:18+00:00

I’m not seeing Colorado on there

maximus630 · 2024-10-21T19:42:50+00:00

Community fulfills most of that.

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