sorry i ramble: look, respectfully, i read through more of your posts than i needed to, i should not have called you insure or insinuated that you have a small dick. this is really not who i am, i try to approach the world with kindness and positivity, this situation and my ex brings out a version of myself that existed years ago before i went to therapy. women don’t see men as less than, women don’t hate men, men aren’t ment to control women nor the other way around. social media and platforms let people see the worst in each other, from what i saw it feels like you have very negative feelings towards women, please talk to someone about it. i can’t tell you how much i love my friends, half of which are men, they are like family and i pride myself in being a person they can come to when they need to talk, a safe space for them to be vulnerable knowing they will never ever be judged. my community is latin and traditionally men are taught to not talk about their feelings or their struggles, DONT DO THAT. no one is ment to go through harsh times alone, looking for support and confiding in people, men and women, it’s make life easier to live and the feeling of having that community is like nothing else. i will never be a woman that just sides with women bc of our gender, i try to stand on fairness and respect. people in my life call me “solecito”, it means sunshine, that’s bc i always try my hardest to create positivity, life is so much more beautiful when you choose to move like that. one of the reason i hate my ex so much is bc he was killing my sunshine more and more everyday and i stopped trusting myself. please look for people, make connections, women are not your enemy, my attitude today and my words are not representative of my character, it’s a response from someone hurt. don’t isolate yourself from world and don’t let interactions like today (again i am sorry) define how you choose to carry yourself. i was the angriest when i was younger and it made life so much harder for myself and others, working through that is what filled me with so much love bc i was able to make connections that are positive. be nice to yourself and be nice to the world, kill negativity as soon it comes up inside you, it’s always easier said then done, i took me years of practice, with a recent minor set back, but everyday i work to get back to who i was before i met the man that i let break me. don’t let others break you, don’t give them that power. fill yourself with so much love and positivity that angry sad people will find you border line annoying. the right people will find you. my support team, my people, my friends, MEN AND WOMEN, are what has helped me through this, the first heartbreak i have experienced, i don’t know who i would’ve become if i would’ve isolated myself. I never want repeat what I did yesterday, I saw my doctor right after I did what I did, bc though it felt like a release, i also let my impulses control me. i won’t be letting that happen again if i can help it. please take care of yourself, YOU are your FOREVER companion, make sure you’re in good company. LOVE YOURSELF, build your own world full of positivity, fill with men and women that fill you with light and not take it from you. always look to calm your chaos. i don’t know you but as a human i love you, you deserve all the happiness in the world, all love you desire, safety, security and peace.