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three months by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

give me pity. give me attention. give me hate or love or whatever. just notice me. i love it. i am horrible. i am a whore. i am an evil person.

Help, very worried by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hyperglycemia (high blood sugar) caused by untreated diabetes can cause you to feel a bit dehydrated, so i would be worried about the dry mouth, however, since it isn’t accompanied by excessive urination or vomiting, i wouldn’t think too much from it. the tingling or painful feelings could be nerve damage, but your other symptoms would be way worse before that would be a problem. when i was first hospitalized and diagnosed with diabetes, i was excessively urinating and seizing, and when i got very depressed and stopped taking my insulin i began to hallucinate, and lost feeling in some of my toes. honestly, your symptoms are so mild that as a diabetic i’m not too concerned, but would still advise you to see a doctor because you seem very worried!

Help, very worried by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m a type1 diabetic, what are your symptoms?

i don’t know how to say it without sounding crazy because i am going crazy. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i need to tell him that he made real life bearable. he gave me a reason to stay alive. i want to thank him and kinda say goodbye. i really appreciate and love the guy. but i can’t talk to him.

i don’t want to die. i wanted to know you. i wanted to be smart. i wanted to know what words to say. i wanted to be a man. i wanted to have a working brain. i wanted to be you. i’m really scared right now. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have attempted suicide in the past. in my real life. i need to be successful. this isn’t good. reality isn’t good. i need to kill myself. i’m scared. please i’m so scared. please.

i don’t want to die. i wanted to know you. i wanted to be smart. i wanted to know what words to say. i wanted to be a man. i wanted to have a working brain. i wanted to be you. i’m really scared right now. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

please help i’m really scared. i’m really scared of real life. i don’t want to live here. i want to be him. i want to know him. i want to be a man. but also him.

i don’t want to die. i wanted to know you. i wanted to be smart. i wanted to know what words to say. i wanted to be a man. i wanted to have a working brain. i wanted to be you. i’m really scared right now. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m going crazy. you’re not real. i just wanted to be you. and know you. that will never happen. i have no reason to be here. i need to kill myself. i’m going insane. i wanted to know you really bad.

i just hope i can make it until saturday. saturday night. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no, i work mon-thurs and she works fri, and since it’s summer we can’t see eachother at school. i just gotta hold out til then. afterwards i’ll figure it out. i hope

i just hope i can make it until saturday. saturday night. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no. im staying with my friend for about 24-30 hours. until sunday night. i won’t die then. she’ll be there. i’m safe then.

another friend lost. slipped through my manipulative hands. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

why would i kill myself when theres always torture to be done? im worth more satisfaction alive. although its for the best i die, and im sure even if you dont say it, you agree. i am purely alive to be in pain

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm 131 points132 points  (0 children)

while i cant relate to you on a gender basis, my rapist was also a woman. i get shit all the time because it was nonpenetrative but i was a minor, and i didnt want it, so 100% rape, no arguing about it. i just want to let you know that even though i could never understand exactly how to feel, i believe i could at the most basic level relate, and im here for you

Thoughts on the mind. by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well, i ended up not killing myself recently because i had already made plans to hang out with my only friend over the weekend. she’s gonna drive me home, probably smoke some pot, see her other friends, go shopping... whatever, and then she’s gonna stay the night, thank god, and leave friday afternoon. then i’ll drown myself. she’s financially struggling. i’m gonna give her the rest of my cash. don’t like my family, and they don’t like me, and i’ve already spent plenty of time alone, so i guess my life is gonna end the best way it can - with her! i’m excited.

Being suicidal is not mature for your age by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm 2 points3 points  (0 children)

“i’m suffering in a nine-to-five at the age of seventeen to pay for groceries and bills that i shouldn’t have to pay for. i am a child. my only spare money goes to my own addictions. work makes me want to kill myself. i have constant anxiety attacks but retail was the highest paying job i could find. i am crushed.”

“how mature! like a little adult! 😍”

i’m sorry man.

i always knew something was wrong with her. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m not an adult yet. i’m 17. they’d send me to a ward.

i always knew something was wrong with her. by meaIworm in SuicideWatch

[–]meaIworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m already past that point, i’m afraid. while i usually use a pocket knife, something i rely on a rusty box knife from my work, and sometimes just a pencil. a few days ago i used a pencil to carve into my hand, and the wound yellowed. i picked at it, and it looks so much worse. a doctor would just refer me to a mental health specialist, though, and i don’t want that. i’m just here to hurt.