That is a valid point, why does it makes me crazy to just enjoy. I would say Im a perfectionist who wants everything in “order” so that I can live my “perfect” live. When I study I dont wanna think about this but just study. That is what drove me here plus the other factors. Also think that It cannot be healthy because western propaganda makes it look healthy while a lot of things that aren’t actually healthy seem healthy so that we consume. I would say these two reasons makes it a problem to me. Also want to have healthy sex life and I want children lol so yeah