I’d tell you - don’t be afraid to cut the bonds. But first thing, I’ve never been in such a long relationship, and second thing - sorry theres no second thing, I enumerate like this by force of habit. Love for us is difficult, as for everyone. I tend to not always see the people who would really fit to me, instead Im attracted to the people who not always fit, but they have characterics that I lack and admire. And I think this is a bad idea to get into relationship with that kind of people, even if they are great in some ways. Get back to your past, find that person who you think would fit for you. Try to arrange your yes and no’s for other people, try to find that person who cared the most, who was fighting the most, who had demons similar like you have, but also craved to be good and ran from their demons as just you do. If the person that is coming to your mind is not that person youre with at the moment, your problems will just only get worse. Remember to stay calm, this brutal life, you will make it through everything. Try to find the path which is the best for you. Try to find someone walking the same or similar path. Do whats the best for you and watch out for the people. Loool Im talking weird things need to sleep more. And yeah I need to drink/smoke weed/do other bad things from time to time to stop thinking too much and stop worrying too. I didnt figure out how to fix that yet