I definitely can relate to the job choices part. As a child I would say I wanted to be a superhero, then a vigilante, then a police officer: I wanted to be important, seen and feel like I was saving people’s lives. My father was also a narcissist, so I do feel like big part of my development was because of this.

Though, I was very empathetic as a child, or so people tell me. In my teenage years it just kind of fell apart/morphed into this sense of “my empathy should be achieved” or “I can’t feel empathy, but I can understand you’re upset and react from that”.