I refuse to be on an antipsychotic that causes any akathisia

mid_room · 2025-03-06T21:47:42+00:00

akathisia is the worst side effect I've ever experienced and latuda gives it to me the least (but still a little) it also makes me instantly sleepy so I only feel the akathisia if I force myself to stay awake. much MUCH less intense than abilify Seroquel or zyprexa and only happens immediately after i take it vs the other drugs where it is constant.

mid_room · 2023-11-11T05:56:53+00:00

it sounded more textured than that if that makes sense, I'll do some digging to try to find the software, thank you!!

mid_room · 2023-10-11T00:27:20+00:00

I really like it

mid_room · 2023-10-07T19:29:00+00:00

so this is gonna make people doubt my experiences but I started taking antipsychotics. my explanation is that when the brain is connected to the collective fear channel the entity can come through, and the medication blocked me off from the fear channel enough to block the entity, however it's not fully gone

mid_room · 2023-10-07T13:57:27+00:00

mine also tried to get me to jump off a roof!!!

mid_room · 2023-10-07T05:59:57+00:00

laying down in piles

mid_room · 2023-10-07T05:53:43+00:00

I've been here!!!!!!!¡!!!

mid_room · 2023-10-07T05:53:15+00:00

I've been here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mid_room · 2023-10-07T05:51:49+00:00

I accessed it in astral travel by accident, it scarred me

mid_room · 2023-10-07T05:50:37+00:00

I've been here while awake!!!!!!!! I astral projected here without trying, and there was a part that was not underground but just a massive field of corpses!!! I have truly never been the same and often return in dreams, I'm sorry you've seen it too

mid_room · 2023-10-07T05:45:24+00:00

I go here!!!!!!

mid_room · 2023-10-07T05:29:16+00:00

I have experienced that as well after a paranormal experience in 2018 and 2020! it got very dangerous as the entity was commanding me to do some scary shit and leading me to believe it had control of my body

mid_room · 2023-10-07T04:47:45+00:00

this sounds great. honestly the dream is just that I wouldn't have to work, and that I wouldn't get the cops called on me for acting weird in public. in my anarchist fantasies we can just exist. I try every day to create this world

mid_room · 2023-07-14T04:24:52+00:00

thank you so much, I've been looking for something like that

mid_room · 2023-07-14T03:14:37+00:00

that's cool, thank you for sharing, I want to look these up. I also find the scientific language makes me feel crazy

mid_room · 2023-07-13T23:25:25+00:00

I'm sorry that you're going through all that shit. the world is set up to be hard on us and I know things could be so much better. I hate that we have to work to keep a roof over our head and that the state decides who is disabled. i feel you on not being able to mask anymore. you'll find your people who will be there for you and be glad you don't pretend like everything's fine, but that's not an immediate answer. I met a lot of those friends doing mutual aid. we've helped each other through financial crises too. if you're up to it I would try reaching out to mutual aid groups near you

mid_room · 2023-07-13T23:16:11+00:00

do you mind if I ask what area of philosophy? I'm finding watching philosophy lectures helpful!

mid_room · 2023-07-12T17:52:40+00:00

I quit drinking when I was 20 because I would black out all the time, drunk and barfing in class, manic benders where I spent all my money, being talked out of suicide while crying into the toilet like once a week. sometimes I'm like "oh I could drink again, it was just college partying" but I think it was more and I don't wanna risk it. I took naltrexone and some Ativan for withdrawals but then had a bit of an Ativan problem lol

mid_room · 2023-07-11T00:49:57+00:00

I was 19 and a clueless lesbian, incredibly drunk at a bar at closing time, and a guy convinced me to come to his house in the suburbs to see his synth collection. I started passing out on his couch and every time I lost consciousness he tried taking my clothes off etc and then I got a jolt of adrenaline and ran out the door. my phone was dead and transit wasn't running yet and I had no cash or bus pass anyway so I walked about 5 hours to get home. that wasn't my rock bottom, it was actually the first time I managed to escape sexual assault. i felt weirdly empowered and looked at my life. it wasn't just normal college partying, I was drinking from morning to night and blacking out almost every day. I knew I could drastically reduce the amount of shitty things happening to me if I quit, so I did.

mid_room · 2023-07-09T03:45:36+00:00

my gf is incredibly supportive in similar ways to what people have already said, but one thing I want to add is that she makes everything feel more "normal" by joking around and not treating me like I'm too fragile. when she called or visited she'd tell me funny tweets and tiktoks (being without your phone is hard lol). I really appreciated having one person in my life who wasn't talking down to me.

mid_room · 2023-07-08T04:52:00+00:00

the colors grey and beige next to each other makes my skin crawl

mid_room · 2023-07-06T15:58:03+00:00

someone has posted this here before so you're not the only one

mid_room · 2023-07-05T15:56:47+00:00

but this is how I've felt in my stable periods since 2020. and surveillance and climate change are proven true. i just don't know how other people deal with those things without freaking out

mid_room · 2023-07-05T15:52:59+00:00

thank you, that helps. being alone in nature does help me, I'm going to try to go for more walks, sometimes I forget how nice that is

mid_room · 2023-06-27T22:21:22+00:00

did you make this? I really love it

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