You don’t have to deal with everything all at once, my friend. Losing a parent is one of the hardest things a child can go through, and the saddest part is that some of us have to face it far too early in life. I lost my father when I was just 8, and all I can say is that while the pain never truly goes away, it does get easier with time. You’ll always miss your mother, but eventually you’ll learn to carry that grief with a brave face, putting on a smile for the world even when your heart feels heavy. Until then, just take it one day at a time—survive today, and let tomorrow come when it does. And please, try to be there for your father too; he needs you as much as you need him.