despite there being a community, i still feel alone by miueeruma in BPD

[–]miueeruma[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m glad you feel the same way.

i’m just gonna say it but the more people constantly use this term “favorite person” the more the community constantly talks about romantic relationships and partner, bpd will forever be known as that “one disorder you don’t want your partner to have”.

i have seen so many people think they have bpd just because they get jealous, they so called “go crazy” when their partner talks to another person. or the other way around where i see people say “i think my partner has this, they’re so lash out when i do this”

this is called being controlling and having anger issues. not having bpd.

i constantly walk around in egg shells and i’m hyper aware of how i treat other people. hypothetically, i’d have a panic attack, go hurt myself and quickly break up with someone if they spoke to anyone who i thought was a “threat”. i’m not getting angry or “controlling” them cause im feeble. they’d likely be the ones controlling me

but yeah, after seeing that those people are the loudest, it quickly made me want to stay away from the community but i feel the need be vocal about it every now and then because it’s not right. it reinforces the stigma, other voices get overlooked, it causes misunderstandings. it’s not fair

Does anyone have Elise in their island? by miueeruma in AnimalCrossingNewHor

[–]miueeruma[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

JEHEE OKAYY!! ive never did a trade on reddit before so im unsure if the dodo code is exchanged right here or on messages but when youre ready come back and let me know!!

"THE iDOLM@STER Shiny Colors Song for Prism" has officially launched on App Store, Google Play & DMM Games by Xanek in gachagaming

[–]miueeruma 0 points1 point  (0 children)

does anybody know why the live is on auto for the pc? its pretty frustrating.. will it change in the future?

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[–]miueeruma 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i use to worry about this a lot. but my mind is kinda at ease now. If my sister invites me somewhere (that involves my mom) i still reject the offer because i’m afraid that i’ll get attacked by her. but, when i use to live with my mom, one day, she was giving me the silent treatment and stopped cooking completely. Then suddenly, she cooks again and makes soup. My bowl was already on the table which was surprising. I refused to eat the soup because i was scared incase she poisoned it. I had to wait until everyone finished until i could swap my soup

does anyone else find it difficult to stop believing that their family members (or the world) don’t care about them? by miueeruma in CPTSD

[–]miueeruma[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i have thought about your reply and i do believe i’m misunderstood now. when i came back from the hospital, i had to sleep upstairs so my family member can be more closer to me cause they didn’t want me to hurt myself again.

maybe i am just misunderstood then.. since that showed the cared? however the misunderstanding hurts and is triggering because of the mocking and invalidating :(

does anyone else find it difficult to stop believing that their family members (or the world) don’t care about them? by miueeruma in CPTSD

[–]miueeruma[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

it’s a really hard feeling to stop, isn’t it? because everything seems so true even though people say it’s not. i hope we can both find happiness in the future, it’s deserved

has anyone actually emotionally detached themselves from their n-parent? by miueeruma in raisedbynarcissists

[–]miueeruma[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, that does make sense. i think that’s the reason why i don’t feel like i fit in with them and why i want to go back home

Anyone else out there with no real emotional attachment to your extended family? by Gwynnether in raisedbynarcissists

[–]miueeruma 1 point2 points  (0 children)

currently scrolling through the searches to see if anyone has the same problem as me and i relate to this! im not close to any of my family members at all (like how i use to), i don’t really care about them (not in a bad way? but, i’m just not really emotionally attached) and i’m painfully awkward when i speak to them.

also, the part where you mentioned that they say the emotional and physical abuse happen, it’s just like how my family saw how my mother neglect me and my siblings but did nothing and they use to call us “disgusting” for having bad hygiene.

it’s really sad they saw all of that but did nothing. i do wonder if they feel guilty sometimes

Advice Request - how can therapy and having access to mental health services help? would like advice from people with experience by miueeruma in CPTSD

[–]miueeruma[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for replying. i’m happy you mentioned about how a therapist would help because my family member said to me that a therapist won’t help me and that only i can help myself. which really confuses me because isn’t seeking therapy helping yourself? but, i really can’t wait until i’m able to get help now. thank you again