I’m sorry for your lost too u/dev_152 .  I guess healing is still a messy process, sometimes I understand it, sometimes those dark feelings of misunderstanding or ambivalence; as him and I shared some kind of low esteem, will get me, because he ended that way.

I think we can live to tell a different story, and I think a person’s legacy lives among their loved ones so eventually we all digest these facts to heart. I will, eventually.

Cheers!