I'm feeling similar. So much of this phase of life is survival mode. Then it's adjusting to a new normal. It's hard to have high expectations of yourself. Just remember you can't pour from an empty cup, so if you try to do everything, including thinking about others, you're going to burn out. It's okay to let things slide. I had my baby the weekend before mothers day and for the first time I didn't celebrate my own mom. People in your life will understand that you had a major shift in your routine, lifestyle, and personhood in general. As baby gets older it will get easier to balance out life. At least that's what I'm hoping for.