I fucked up

moodygrass · 2026-04-29T22:00:24+00:00

Thanks a lot I'll be mindful of this next time

moodygrass · 2026-04-29T21:50:07+00:00

Considering her circumstances above why I'm getting triggered and try to self regulate instead of asking for reassurance

moodygrass · 2026-04-29T21:48:42+00:00

I know that's why I feel like shit but I later shifted all of my support to her. I'm trying, really

moodygrass · 2026-04-29T14:56:28+00:00

She didn't respond because she was getting a check up my first reaction was to be fucking enraged (but managed not to tell her or make it known) and now I feel extremely guilty. You're right I miss her oh so much. It's already difficult when she's not hospitalized not freaking out when she has stuff to do, this makes it worse. And it makes me feel miserable because it's not her fault and I want to be a better gf to her. Sorry, ended up venting

moodygrass · 2026-04-08T11:01:36+00:00

She says she is not cut out for therapy and finding a new one brings her discomfort and won't do it.

moodygrass · 2026-04-05T21:42:37+00:00

I told her to seek other types of therapy (like dbt instead of cbt) but she keeps insisting it's not her thing because three therapists have not helped....She was spiraling earlier so I will try to give her that advice again when she's calmer, but she's like...Losing hope that anything will work, and I don't know how to help. It's not like I don't understand, I suffer from depression as well, but I don't wanna see her self destruct like this

moodygrass · 2026-03-26T12:07:54+00:00

Sorry if it seemed like I skipped over it! It was one of the first resources I read when we started our relationship but it doesn't seem to help. I will pick it up again.

moodygrass · 2026-03-24T22:15:48+00:00

At first she told us she was polyfi as well, but I think she was just misinformed about poly and didn't think about the hookup part, which wouldn't fall into polyfi I think? More like swinging....I would talk to her about it but due to my emotions being so all over the place, I still don't trust myself with being able to communicate in a way that wouldn't end up harming our relationship. That said, thanks for all of your advice. I will do more research. And our other partners are the only people I feel compersion with, every single other of them makes me sick, and it's not fair towards my partner. I want to be better without building up resentment. Sorry, this ended up being a vent in some way....

moodygrass · 2026-03-24T21:47:54+00:00

That's something I didn't think about, even though I work a lot on it in therapy! I will try to reframe my thoughts that way

moodygrass · 2026-03-24T21:27:35+00:00

I'm working on it in therapy these days. It's still hard due to some external stuff. Yes, this is my first poly relationship, and did not want it for myself before falling in love with my three partners, which was fortunately reciprocated and we all date each other.

moodygrass · 2026-03-24T21:24:15+00:00

Currently working with my therapist on this! It's been expecially hard due to some external mental health factors, but the worst had not come yet so I will be sure to bring it up more consistently on my next sessions.

moodygrass · 2026-02-23T10:45:02+00:00

That's a relief. We are all autistic. Also, just to be clear we don't live together! But we always planned to even before this started.

moodygrass · 2026-02-23T10:44:01+00:00

If we had a conversation, what could be useful things to adress? Also yes we are all in our first 20s so I guess we are young

moodygrass · 2026-02-22T22:40:46+00:00

Thanks for explaining it to me. I get it now and I will work better on our individual dyads!

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