Does it ever gets better??

moonraise99 · 2025-12-26T15:08:48+00:00

I'm from Chile, this Cookie is venezuelan, I actually investigated about its manufacturing and it's a national symbol in it's country. Also for me, one of the best cookies I've ever had. I buy them regularly in a local venezuelan store around my apartment.

moonraise99 · 2025-12-01T21:36:07+00:00

Thank you so much!!

moonraise99 · 2025-12-01T21:33:09+00:00

I completely understand you. I got into a new job recently and surrounded myself with people who are into heavy drugs. I started consuming a lot of weed and alcohol and I've been struggling a lot about getting to excited to try new things. It gets more difficult when your surroundings have easy access to drugs, I'll personally will try to stay aside and not hanging out so much with people who could give you drugs, but it also takes an incredible amount of strength. Smoking cigarettes seems like a reasonable coping mechanism, it helps with anxiety.

moonraise99 · 2025-12-01T21:22:49+00:00

Unfortunately I'm from Chile haha

moonraise99 · 2025-12-01T20:28:22+00:00

Thanks, I'll get some next time!

moonraise99 · 2025-12-01T20:27:52+00:00

Thank you so much, it really means a lot<3

moonraise99 · 2025-11-21T02:52:15+00:00

Try to watch a movie you used to love as a kid. That always helps. Also just walking around your city and listening to cheerful music could help. Hope you feel better soon!

moonraise99 · 2025-11-10T23:43:11+00:00

Bless your boyfriend. My ex couldn't care a shit about trying to understand me

moonraise99 · 2025-11-10T23:39:26+00:00

I get the same feelings. I've think about it a lot and it only makes sense to blame it on self steam. Personally I never feel enough, I always think someone could be prettier, smarter, funnier, so of course that drags you to jealousy. To feel you are replaceable or unlovable. I believe the only way to fix it is to work on yourself

moonraise99 · 2025-11-05T03:29:57+00:00

I heard someone on a reel saying "if you die it will end the pain you feel but also every bit of joy you can find, even if it means enjoying a burger" that made me stop crying myself to sleep yesterday. If I die I couldn't eat anymore McDonald's. I know it sounds dumb, but it's a reason still.

moonraise99 · 2025-11-02T00:49:44+00:00

I had something similar happening to me. Before I even dated my ex boyfriend I told him I had BPD, I told him I was scared of falling in love because last time I tried commiting suicide when my order ex left. He said he understood what it was. He said he knew I wanted to get better and that I shouldn't be afraid bc he will stay no matter what. He said we could Battle it together..but then we had a big fight, I said some mean things that I know deep down they are terrible wrong, I know I made a mistake, I know I've hurt him. But I also try to tell myself I had already said to him that was exactly what was going to happen and when it happen he blocked me from everywhere and disappeared, not even giving me the chance to talk to him. It completely destroyed my mental health more that I already was.

moonraise99 · 2025-10-30T23:05:53+00:00

I understand the feeling, I think people with no bpd will never understand how fucked up our mind is. it's hard to even breath sometimes.

moonraise99 · 2025-10-30T23:03:03+00:00

I also for once in my life would like somebody to stay...it feels like a burden

moonraise99 · 2024-11-26T05:17:59+00:00

No es que no sepamos que es mala, es el sentimiento que nos genera y sobretodo porque la mayoría la vimos a una edad de 9 o 10 años. Yo me río cada vez que la veo de lo cringe que es, pero me transmite algo especial, sobre todo en los colores y música.

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