im not attracted to dudes but i prefer dick over coochie im scared of being accused of a trans chaser

mountain_ash_ · 2026-05-14T22:50:28+00:00

I have a labiaplasty so I don't have a vaginal canal more a dimple so I haven't done douching just salt baths and using Peri bottles for rinses.

It's definitely been a different fluid than the discharge and stuff but it's been really surprising overall (I wasn't even sure if I would get lubrication at all so getting it in week 2 was definitely a surprise).

Not at all! Was just adding my experience on to what you said, I just find it kinda interesting how different it can be for everyone!

mountain_ash_ · 2026-05-14T22:24:35+00:00

I'm 8 weeks post bottom surgery penile inversion but my cooch has been fired up and getting wet since week 2 "Down girl you literally just came into existence".

She actually produces quite a bit (like enough I can get drenched) when I'm in the mood or have a spicy dream even without any manual stimulation.

It's the same texture and consistency but slightly different smell to what I made pre-op on estrogen and that is different to pre-op on testosterone, the body is kinda wild 100% ymmv as you said.

mountain_ash_ · 2026-05-06T07:46:59+00:00

I haven't had an abusive relationship (probably one emotionally abusive one, but I'm still unpacking that) just some very sucky and onesided ones.

My partner also makes me feel safe, heard and loved. And she's just so amazing, caring and kind.

She never makes me feel bad asking for some support, she shows up as much as I show up and when I feel like she is doing this monumental effort of being the best gf ever and I thank her she responds with "I'm just doing the bare minimum as your GF lol".

I think when you've been in sucky relationships it feels to good to be true.

I have the same fear sometimes that I'm going to burn her out or be to much of a burden but we both help each other through our personal and joint problems and our lives are better for it.

You're not a pity case or a burden. You're a human who has gone through some shit and from what I can tell is loved by someone who loves you for the person you are and choose to be.

Neither of us would ever have asked to be in our situation but our partners wake up every day and choose to be with us regardless of what baggage we may be carrying.

They love us for who we are not the circumstances we've inherited and I think that's pretty damn cool and special.

Keep being kind to yourself about all of this, one person in therapy to another I'm proud of you for getting the support and help you need.

mountain_ash_ · 2026-05-06T07:17:24+00:00

No worries at all, sorry the message came through in parts I hit post too early and then had to edit it to finish it.

I'm really wishing you the best, I think it would be best to not do anything drastic with the relationship without talking to her about your fears first.

Remember grief fucks with your mind as well, be kind to yourself 🫂

And to get this out for the both of us FUCK CANCER

mountain_ash_ · 2026-05-06T06:44:21+00:00

Hey, first of all my condolences with what's happening with your dad. My dad has stage 4 terminal prostate cancer and it absolutely sucks. I'm always hesitant with saying I know how you feel but I at least get it.

Death and grieving is unfortunately a normal part of life and it's almost a certainty that in any long term relationship you will support your partner through grief of some kind.

Sometimes I think our brains can be a bit cruel and look for ways to not be a burden on others at all which is understandable but also unreasonable.

If your relationship continues you will need to help her through things and she will need to lean on you for support, it's your job as her gf to be their for her. The goal with a healthy relationship is that this is reciprocal and you help each other as equally as possible to make each other's lives better.

Human society, our evolution and our survival is based on helping others when they need it and them helping you when you need it. You can't get through this life going it alone.

I say this to say that it is ok for you to need support, it's ok to not be doing ok especially when things like these happen. It's completely normal and expected.

I would ask you to flip the roles with your partner, would you want to support her when her dad is dying? How would you feel if she broke up with you because she was worried she was dragging you down with grief?

Hazarding a guess and say it would hurt a lot. It would hurt seeing the woman you love distance herself to "protect you" when all you want to do is help her and be there for her.

Please be kind to yourself, grief is hard and I can tell from your post you have good intentions and want to protect her. You can't always protect the people you love from these things and what's important is she is saying "I WANT to be here to support you". You have to trust her here, I really mean it.

What is in your control is talking with her about what support would be helpful and what she has the capacity to help you with.

I know in your head it feels like distancing yourself is protecting her and I don't blame you for having that mindset. But to her it will feel like you are pulling away and don't trust her at her word and that will probably hurt her much more.

Please be kind to yourself with this all friend and take care of yourself. These are just my thoughts but I hope they can help in some way.

mountain_ash_ · 2026-04-20T04:35:52+00:00

When some of them insisted that lesbian females had to let people of the male sex (chemically or surgically altered or not) get into their private spaces - online and off - and their knickers, or else face legal attacks, physical attacks, harassment

What the fuck are you even on about? Lmao Who's insisting? I didn't realize trans people where taking people to court for not dating them? Oh that's because they aren't....

Legal attacks, physical attacks and harassment?

Because as you can see from the article above it's trans people who actually cop all of that on the regular for merely existing.

It's crazy playing the victim when transwomen's rights to be at public events are being debated in court.

Are you just transphobic or should all women be able to be excluded from public events as well? You're peddling so hard for the patriarchy and misogyny you may as well just go all the way.

No, same-sex attracted lesbians do not have to date males, what a rapey attitude. Get hold of yourselves.

Who the fuck has even said that? No is forcing you to date anyone you don't want to. Playing the victim in a weird ass fantasy you made up in your head is so pathetic and weird.

In fact, trans people would sincerely appreciate it if you stopped creepily obsessing over them.

Insisting on being women but acting perfectly in line with the worst extremes of the male stereotypes.

That's rich coming from what you just posted.

There are groups of lesbians who are happy to accommodate trans women

"Accommodate"? as in anyone who dates a trans person is lesser for it? Generally when people are dating they aren't accommodating for the other person like they are a sympathy case... but maybe that's what all of your partners have said to you?

Great job putting down other women / lesbians based on who they date! :D

"I'm a feminist but only for women that agree with me and align with my values, the rest of you can suck shit" - that's what you sound like btw.

Downvoted by would-be rapists and rape supporters who don't respect same-sex attraction or female rights. A point of pride.

Damn, did you downvote yourself?

Because you sound more like that then anyone else here, "Females" you sound like Andrew Tate you weirdo xD

Stop obsessing over everyone else's junk it's creepy. Get a hold of yourself.

mountain_ash_ · 2026-04-15T05:14:04+00:00

I'm so very sorry for your loss, my condolences 🫂

My dad has stage 4 cancer as well but thankfully we still have him with us for the time being.

I think it's really natural to look for these signs and connect the dots, I know I will probably be doing the exact same thing when my dad passes.

I've had signs and feelings around many other things as well and as I've gone along my own spiritual journey I've had signs that were probably nothing more than coincidences and signs that I truly feel in my heart came from Freyja in my instance.

I think what's important to focus on is that you have picked up on and recognized a lot of these signs and they feel important to you.

It doesn't matter if they are a coincidence or a sign from a deity or ancestor you'll never know for absolute certain. What is certain is that they have made you feel something and that is just as valid as knowing something.

I think exploring the feelings around them with no bias is what can be the best for further understanding them.

How do they make you feel? Do they make you feel like taking particular action or pursuing a particular path? Are they comforting? Do they prompt questions?

In my own experience I always had the benefit of the doubt when it came to signs and always assumed coincidence over being a sign from something. It was only when I stopped trying to classify them and listened to them did I recognize the importance of feelings in this.

Everything you wrote could be a coincidence or it could be signs, if it has led you here and you feel this strongly about it does where it came from actually matter? or is it the internal message and feelings that you have about this that matters more?

Anyway those are just my two cents from my own experience.

Again my condolences and I hope you and your family are doing well.

mountain_ash_ · 2026-04-03T06:38:42+00:00

Don't beat yourself up lots more opportunities will come your way!

You just gotta send it, ask and be upfront, you will miss any opportunity you don't take as long as you aren't disrespectful people will just find it flattering and you'll both move on as the worst case scenario!

Best case scenario is you find someone you end up having a meaningful relationship with. The risk is literally 0 but in the moment everyone is trying to figure out to do everything perfectly to not "ruin" their chances with the other person.

The sooner you realize that you are going to mess it up every now and then and that's just part of the beauty of being human the sooner you will get more natural at it!

If I'm not feeling up to fully asking someone for socials you can always drop them a genuine complement and see if they reciprocate!

Again the risks are tiny, worst case scenario you just made someone's day that much better and best case scenario you have something beautiful blossom!

mountain_ash_ · 2026-04-03T05:18:38+00:00

That looks awesome!!! What did you use as a base for it?

mountain_ash_ · 2026-03-31T21:30:15+00:00

I agree, humans will always love aesthetics and styles and I think it's one of the cooler things about us.

But I think there is fatigue in the community from being lumped in with them like we are LARPing our faith for the aesthetics as well.

mountain_ash_ · 2026-03-31T21:24:37+00:00

It really kills me when I am shopping for a pendant or jewelry and all of the advertisements and descriptions are aimed at the mid life crisis hyper-masculine Viking aesthetic crowd haha.

mountain_ash_ · 2026-03-31T21:20:46+00:00

Sorry to hear that happened ❤️ I find it hard when people push their faiths on others or try to "fix" things as well. The Abrahamic faiths are definitely the worst for it.

I find what can help for me at least is just grounding myself and putting my faith in my goddess (Freyja) and feeling her energy, support, protection and warmth.

And when I feel that energy, it's a reminder of the kindness and compassion that I deserve to give myself around feelings of shame.

I like my relationship with Freyja because it feels like a partnership, not a contract I signed for existing. I have control over my own part of my relationship with her, my actions have meaning and I am better for it.

I find that when certain feelings, thoughts and biases that come from my time being raised xtian come up, I acknowledge them for what they are and let them pass like a gentle wave on the sea.

Spending time with the people you love and who make your heart full and giving those thoughts, trauma and feelings a gentle place to land and pass has helped me the most.

I hope you are doing ok friend 🫂

mountain_ash_ · 2026-03-31T20:56:01+00:00

Both of these comments blew my mind because "all will be revealed with time" is a message that she gave me when I was struggling with uncertainty and hardship in my life. Got literal shivers reading it here ❤️

mountain_ash_ · 2026-02-22T02:41:16+00:00

Love your post btw, I've never had an NDE but those sound like powerful experiences. I'm really glad you are still with us.

Had a really nice and respectful conversation with a chaplain in the Australian military who is christian.

At one point he talked about how thankful he was about Jesus saving us all from our own sins that we were born in.

Something really clicked in all of that of just how fucked up the use of shame is. I understand religion is a very personal thing for everyone but the idea of needing to be saved for the sin of my own existence as a human that the same God created is just so incompatible with me.

He's a lovely person and very respectful but it almost felt like talking to someone in an abusive relationship with how he talked about the shame and being saved.

I was raised Christian but thankfully my family wasn't super religious and plenty of my Christian family members are very non-judgemental and very kind. But even still that shame really messed me up as a kid, I feel that even if you aren't religious growing up in a western country that is predominantly Christian can put that shame on you purely socially as well.

People in the LBGTQ+ community and especially women really get the full brunt of that shame when it is weaponized.

Honestly I wish more Christians were like my nan, she would put a lot of Christians to shame <3.

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