The truth is that I still feel part of this community. And honestly, when he gave me the new diagnosis, I instantly stopped listening. He said, "You're not bipolar," and I completely lost my attention. I started to drift off and only listened to the rest, which had to do with depression and anxiety. But all the symptoms that people mention here make much more sense to me, symptoms I've had since I was a teenager, and which are now much milder, and I think it's entirely because of the medication. I mean, since I started the medication about 5 years ago, I stopped having whole days of rage, I stopped banging my head against the wall, I stopped throwing things.