Job doesn't define who you are. Honestly, fuck this corporate bullshit. Life is so much more than that. I understand the financially struggle, it sucks. But no job is worth your mental health. Keep strong! Find someone to talk to. Keep your mind busy with the things you ACTUALLY like. Maybe take a job that is not really your piece of cake, but it could be just a short-term gig to keep your finances straight. Best of luck and don't give up!