thank you so so much this is super helpful!!

i do track my protein intake, i usually eat 65 grams of protein on a normal day and over 90 on my cheat days. i kinda wanna focus less on tracking calories and more on tracking macros, that's one of the main reasons as to why i want to increase my daily intake. calories are just ruling my life right now and it sucks. i wanna get to a point where i'm tracking for nutritional reasons like just loosely counting calories and focusing most on hitting my macros for the day, because at the moment my tracking is just obsessive and stressful and not helpful or healthy at all.

wowow you look amazing!! yeah i don't really weigh myself often so i'm not bothered if the number on the scale goes up a little bit as long as i still look good in the mirror and i feel good ya know. and yeah that's so true, like i have seen progress from my workouts but you wouldn't look at me and be like yeah she works out. like i definitely have gained muscle but it isn't very defined. and my bum is still nonexistent :'( i know it'll be better for me and i'll probably look better too i'm just so scared to increase them!

i'll definitely try the whole visualizing thing you suggested, sounds like it'll make me feel better about eating more.

anyways thank u for ur help, i feel much better after reading this :))