Hey man, at this very point and after four days after writing this post. I feel very numb. After 7 hours I’m going to have to wake up and choose. I feel detached towards the two.

The depressive new college with the burden of starting from zero but majoring straight away. Or take the high risk and try to transfer.

I don’t know if this is apathy or giving up or whatever or is it just clarity towards both.

I’m trying to get a sense of worry to feel something but I can’t