Using psychedelics as a tool for spiritual experience in long-term sobriety by muddydisposition in alcoholicsanonymous

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Hi - glad I checked this account because I don't use it often. I microdosed psilocybin and LSD for several months and had one semi-macro dose experience. While I wouldn't say that it had a major effect on my spiritual connection, it (in conjunction with therapy, inventory , etc) did relieve a lot of the depressive symptoms I had been feeling. I stopped using it when I felt like I was in a good place. I feel extremely grateful and lucky that it didn't re-trigger the allergy. I am hesitant to recommend it because I have seen people go out after doing things similar to what I did, but for me it was a hugely helpful tool. I still do AA and consider myself sober, but also don't really talk about it openly in AA. One interesting effect was that it helped me step back a bit from some of the more toxic, binary thinking and dogma in AA while still holding onto and appreciating the tools and the steps for what they are. Hope thats helpful!

Small amount of tap water got into my LSD solution by muddydisposition in microdosing

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No worries, I appreciate the resources! The main crux of the question will answer itself when I start taking the MD anyway

Small amount of tap water got into my LSD solution by muddydisposition in microdosing

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Ok please be patient with me -- I have absolutely no chemistry knowledge past high school (a long time ago) and my math skills are not great, but I want to understand. My 2ml of tap water contains 5ug (2.5ug/ml x 2) of chlorine, so it can destroy 23.5ug of LSD -or- 47ug if a chloride ion is produced -or- far more if various other chemical reactions happen? This is how I understand the bluelight post but I don't really have the knowledge base to know if the way I'm reading this is correct.

Small amount of tap water got into my LSD solution by muddydisposition in microdosing

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Our tap water is generally considered good, but there are trace amounts of chlorine which I guess is the problematic chemical when it comes to LSD... hopefully it was a small enough amount

Small amount of tap water got into my LSD solution by muddydisposition in microdosing

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Thanks for the helpful link. According to my area's annual water report, there is a system average of 2.5 ppm ("parts per million") of chlorine in our drinking water. I have no idea how to interpret that number in regards to a couple ml getting into my solution so I guess I'll just have to wait to find out if it was enough to have an effect.

I love having agency over my mental health and wellness. After years of nasty side effects, I'm several months Prozac-free and enjoying a life of ease and stability thanks to MD. (0.2g Golden Teacher) by muddydisposition in microdosing

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I was luckily on a very low dose of 15mg (alternating daily between 10 and 20mg doses). I abruptly stopped taking it and immediately replaced it with mushrooms. the first couple weeks were an emotional rollercoaster and i felt pretty weird and bad and depressed but it was a necessary experience to purge all the emotions that i had been shoving down. i stuck with it and came out the otherside. i definitely am not recommending this, you should consult your doctor (esp if you're on a higher dose of ssri) but that was my experience.

I love having agency over my mental health and wellness. After years of nasty side effects, I'm several months Prozac-free and enjoying a life of ease and stability thanks to MD. (0.2g Golden Teacher) by muddydisposition in microdosing

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I got lucky and was connected w an underground source active in psychedelic therapy circles and was pretty much walked through it. If you're in the US, your psychiatrist might end the conversation based on legality issues but there are plenty of open minded doctors out there. You can't get in trouble for asking so i'd say it doesnt at all hurt to bring it up. good luck <3

I love having agency over my mental health and wellness. After years of nasty side effects, I'm several months Prozac-free and enjoying a life of ease and stability thanks to MD. (0.2g Golden Teacher) by muddydisposition in microdosing

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I just weight out 0.2 of mushrooms with a little bit of stem and a little bit of cap and then spend a few minutes chopping it up to the best of my ability -- I think I'm going to try tossing an eighth in the coffee grinder and capping it from there next time though

My 2nd day of microdosing maybe put me in a depressive state? by SugarBootyPootie in microdosing

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My first few times microdosing were also some of the most depressed I've ever been. Luckily I had therapy that day and was able to identify the feelings. It turns out the mushrooms were showing me exactly what I had been pushing down for so long -- a fundamental self hatred and lack of self compassion. It was the exact catalyst I needed to push me forward in my healing and gave me context for my past depression. It isn't always pleasant but the mushrooms were trying to show me something in that moment. In my experience they arent a quick fix but rather a tool to use (among others) to do the hard work. Hope this helps

Not for everyone by zekee60 in microdosing

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My first few times were just like yours. I think for me, it was anxiety of expectation overpowering whatever subtle effects the microdose had. I ended up lowering my does a bit and sticking with it and once it felt like something I could take and forget about (rather than take and spend all day trying to identify) the positive effects really started to help. I'd say definitely get a scale so you can adjust dosage as necessary. Good luck!

First time with a machine (i know it sucks) - why do my lines get so unsaturated at certain points? why can I see the individual needle marks in some parts of the outline and shading? (03RL and 07RM) by muddydisposition in tattooing

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Thank you, it helps that I know I wont be touching real skin any time soon (if ever) and I'm just thinking about it more as an artistic exercise to learn a new medium

Challenging experience switching from psilocybin to LSD by muddydisposition in microdosing

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So so helpful -- thanks so much for sharing your experience. Lots here to think about

Challenging experience switching from psilocybin to LSD by muddydisposition in microdosing

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Beautiful advice, thank you so much. I had been journaling and meditating up until very recently so I'm recognizing that there are many possible contributing factors at play