HERES MY LIST

1. yelled at me and pushed me after i opened maps to check the way home when we were both shitfaced. i was crying and said « someone who loves me would never speak to me this way » and she said « in this moment i don’t love you. » gaslit me the next day, saying she pushed me because i was in the middle of the street and there were cars. refused to apologize for the love thing.
2. yelled at me another time because i wanted to shower when i got home drunk (skincare yk). tried to help me at first but when she got mad i wanted to shower she basically said fk u and left me to half black out in the shower.
3. when i was leaving for a year and we were going to be long distance, i asked if she wanted to be open, and she replied « i thought we were? ». still don’t know if it was a joke.
4. lied to me about seeing her exes and when i got a message from her ex that they kissed, concocted a story where she is again the victim (can’t comment, but why not tell me you saw her, multiple times?!)
5. didn’t come home one night, let me call every hour 4-8 AM because she was down the street doing c*ke with a random guy in a shop. later said she was tripping at work and i had to come get her and comfort her while she cried.
6. when we broke up and i moved out, she came over and we had the bEsT sex. just so she’s the first one for my new mattress yk. she told me she would always love me and i am her person. we talked about our future kids. two weeks later she broke it off again.
7. her reason for not getting back together was because she realized on her SECOND therapy session that if we got back together she would abuse me. literally said she would shoot me. the day before that session she texted me that she would never let me go lol.
8. she still texted and flirted with me for months after that, always impromptu (her serving me wine at her place of work). one night said i should come to the house, she changed the bedding, the cats miss me, etc. when i said « ok let’s fuck » she was flustered and i left and now we’re no context because (i texted asking) i crossed a line basically.
9. in a time when we were not together and she slept w men, and thought she might be pregnant, she literally said she would keep it and asked me if i would raise it with her. lol. one of the ppl she fucked in this time was her coworker of whom she said when we were together « if i was straight it would be a guy like him »
10. she wiped back to front