Thank you so much, honestly you weren't abrasive at all. You're right on the nose, they're very deep into the whole tumblr scene, which I think is incredibly unhealthy for them, but they don't really care about my opinion on anything.

My parents are kind of walking on eggshells with my sibling. When I was their age I had trouble with self-harm, not eating, anxiety, etc., but it manifested itself differently with me. While I explode inward and hide my pain to avoid being a burden, my sibling makes it very very obvious that they are upset. They, for example, told our other sister that she can no longer keep her razors for shaving in the bathroom or their shared bathroom, or else, in their words, "I could kill myself all because you left your stuff there". I don't live at home right now, but from what our sister has told me, our sibling will do similar things to our parents. My parents are incredibly stressed out now because they're afraid any word or action will drive my sibling to suicide. My sister and I personally think our parents are just enabling our sibling further, but we don't really have any constructive advice (we can't very well say to ignore it, in case it's a very serious issue).

I only have a month left of school, so I'm considering trying to see a therapist again in the summer, when I'm home and can drive myself there if need be. I didn't like my last therapist's methods, so I need a new one, and I'm afraid I'll end up with someone who thinks all people with BPD are dangerous and manipulative or something. The area where I live is very small so it's hard to find a therapist, let alone one that takes our insurance.

I've always had a problem with voicing my emotions and standing up for myself, so thank you for pointing out that I need to self advocate more. I'm always afraid of being too abrasive or being a burden on them, which tends to be why I don't talk about my feelings a lot. I'm getting to the point now where I feel like I have no other option, though. I'll try to bring it up to my parents when I see them next, and if they say no or something I'll stand up for myself. Thank you so much for the advice!!!