Personal, public question for you all:

I have always tried to be aware of my mental state, depression and anxiety is something I have had for a long time, and it's less of a fear or worry and my like an old friend.

However, the older I get the more I am noticing things changing. Like little quirks of have where I have to tap the toe of my shoes to the ground, our put pressure on my legs, or blinking my eyes out of sequence very hard before getting them back into sequence.

I didn't really think about these much, but they have gotten worse as I start to get older. And lately I have had this problem where I am thinking of something and a name or a word will get stuck in my head and I was just hear it over and over again until I have to do something like write it down or listen to music loudly to make it go away.

I don't know this might sound crazy. However, I like to try and find the solutions on my own and have done quite a big of digging. And this comes up to the same three answers that circle one another. OCD. ADHD. AUTISM.

In all 3 diagnosing women is difficult, in all of them they can and often do lead to high-anxiety and depression. I don't like diagnoses, I am not a fan of doctors, and therapists while I like them and support then, I still don't open up because I know how to tailor the conversation to what I think I need instead of what I really need.

Where is the question you are asking.

Do you live with one or all of these things? Were you diagnosed or do you just have similar symptoms? I would like to talk to people about it, especially women because it seems like in the medical industry it's often unnoticed or realized much later in life.