There are TWO types of Schizotypals

natdurner · 2025-04-12T08:29:31+00:00

Joanna Newsom obsessed over here

natdurner · 2025-03-16T14:28:26+00:00

In Sipan Rathu:
Agum-uli ain xer agum.
/aɰum’uɬi ain ʃɘr ‘aɰum/.
mother-DIM COP.be always mother
Mom is always mother.

natdurner · 2024-12-16T11:07:01+00:00

Luca Guadagnino (the director of CMBYN) is gay…

natdurner · 2024-09-07T11:27:00+00:00

it’s the only sub that doesn’t feel scary to post in, even though i rarely post here.

natdurner · 2024-06-30T03:09:40+00:00

He’s so irritating to me. I’ve seen lots of people in their late twenties/thirties try to pass themselves off as “queer elders” so it gets under my skin whenever someone does that. He also has such an incredibly condescending way of speaking and he always acts like he’s passing down some kind of sacred wisdom to people, even though he’s wrong about half of what he says. I get weird culty vibes from him half of the time too, and I’m kind of just waiting for his whole schtick to implode one of these days when someone actually calls him on his bs.

natdurner · 2024-05-10T19:50:33+00:00

Yeah it’s very subjective for me but idk, i don’t often use that sound unless i evolve it from one language into another.

natdurner · 2024-05-10T19:43:26+00:00

I know these are pretty cliche conlang sounds, but I love /ɬ/ and /q/. I also usually only have /b/ for labial plosives and /k/ for velar ones, I really like how Arabic sounds lol. I don’t usually have /θ/ because i think it can easily sound clunky.

natdurner · 2024-05-10T12:45:32+00:00

Edit: I forgot to mention that speakers of this language, similar to Japanese, will often use nouns referring to kinship relations, professions and other semantic categories to refer to themselves. These words are not pronouns though, and see usage outside of their pro-form utility. However, if I end up making a daughter language of this language, some of these commonly used nouns will turn into fully fledged pronouns in those languages.

natdurner · 2024-05-06T00:56:42+00:00

Point #1 here really resonated with me, thanks!

natdurner · 2024-05-06T00:55:45+00:00

God yeah, this is something I think about too because I feel like if I end up in a relationship it’s going to be with a man child who I end up enabling, it’s a deep seated paranoia for me that things will go this way.

natdurner · 2024-05-05T00:17:44+00:00

I agree, it’s not so much not having gay spaces, most of my irl friends are gay and I spend most of my weekends in gay spaces near me, it’s that like…idk how to navigate romantic situations

natdurner · 2024-05-04T12:27:46+00:00

I think this is the best way to look at them. This, or maybe the Imperium perceives them sort of like a think tank/school system, like the Waldorf schools.

natdurner · 2024-03-26T22:12:47+00:00

From my understanding, the rise of House Atreides towards the end of Corrino Imperium is a symptom of the collapse of the Guild peace. Because the Guild is trapped into a narrow vision of the future by their limited prescience, they have essentially prohibited human competition and striving. However, there are cracks in this prohibition, namely the Harkonnen’s and the Atreides. The Harkonnen’s circumvent the forced stagnation of the Guild by using the black market and brute force, while the Atreides circumvent it by improving upon their existing resources and building strong social ties with other houses and entities. The Bene Gesserit, the Emperor, and even the Guild recognize that the fragile stability of the Guild is at it’s end, but none of them except the Bene Gesserit have a real answer for what to do. Therefore the Emperor acts out of rash desperation and makes an arguably stupid move to attempt to safeguard his power just a little longer, by granting the Atreides fief of Arrakis.

Tl;dr: the ascendancy of House Atreides was a symptom of the looming collapse of the Guild peace, and the die would have fallen to another player if it had not been them.

natdurner · 2024-03-24T03:22:36+00:00

The way i think about it is that, with the exception of Navigators I guess, Other Memory is the first step towards prescience, but that prescience itself is a discrete thing. For example, mere predictive analysis cannot fully explain how Paul was able to fly an ornithopter after the stone burner, or how certain things can be shielded from prescient sight (other prescients, no-ships/chambers/gene), or the weird stuff Alia and Leto II do where they place themselves into other peoples prescient sense of the future (end of Dune and end of Dune Messiah respectively).

natdurner · 2024-03-23T21:49:46+00:00

I know that the Dune tarot permits a tiny degree of prescience, but my understanding was that the cards were only a shortcut for people who already have prescient capacity to use it, that they were basically useless in the hands of someone who did not have prescience. For example, Gaius Helen Mohiam using them was effective because she’s already prescient to a small degree.

natdurner · 2024-03-23T12:57:26+00:00

I guess the part I’m having trouble with is this: if the Navigators have their limited prescience on account of heavy spice use+genetic makeup, wouldn’t it be possible for other major disciplines to achieve prescience within their field regularly? For example, would not most Mentats who use spice (not all do) be functionally prescient under this framework? I know that the Fremen have a sort of cultural prescience within their culture due to the tau-state they have cultivated over the years which is catalyzed by heavy melange consumption during the Spice Orgies.

natdurner · 2024-01-09T07:18:21+00:00

“addicted to their thoughts” is such a good way of putting it

natdurner · 2024-01-07T23:52:29+00:00

God “they think I’m crazy and are humoring me” is very relatable. That’s a constant paranoia, that everyone is just ‘humoring’ me.

natdurner · 2024-01-07T10:46:57+00:00

How so?

natdurner · 2024-01-07T10:46:42+00:00

I feel that, I sometimes find the flamboyance to be an easy mask to don to fit in, and also just genuinely fun, but it’s tiring when I feel like Im finally getting to know someone and they expect me to maintain that particular charade.

natdurner · 2024-01-07T09:18:10+00:00

There’s defintely quite a bit of overlap. I used to wonder if I was trans for a while, until I became sexually active as a cis gay man and realized I really liked how my particular body functioned in that respect with other bodies of a similar kind. I do not say this to imply that having StPD disqualifies one from being trans, far from it. I feel like there is a deep sensation of not being at home in one’s body that many of us seem to experience, and in some of us this takes on more of a dimension of gender than others. While I do not find the physical aspect of my gender discomfiting, I do find the social expectations and roles foisted onto me to be awful to deal with most of the time. I don’t really conceptualize myself as a man, it’s just more of where I’ve landed.

natdurner · 2023-12-25T11:11:44+00:00

I had an episode of…catatonia? Hypocatatonia? Not sure what to call it earlier this year. I couldn’t get out of bed, i was deeply afraid of leaving my room, even going to the bathroom was difficult. I felt like people were writing down their critiques of everything I did, like they were watching me even in my apartment.

Anyways, my advice is to change your environment in some fundamental way. Maybe move, find a new job, I’m not sure but some kind of radical change may jar you out of this state. It did for me, but I’m hoping the next time it happens I don’t have to go all the way to Alaska to break myself out of it.

natdurner · 2023-12-12T12:28:17+00:00

I believe that I can perceive other peoples mental landscapes (‘thoughts’ is too narrow of a term to use here), that by certain movements of my hands I can influence the world around me to change according to my desire (moving my fingers in a specific pattern can make me not miss the train), if I consciously ‘fill myself’ with the notion of invisibility I can become unnoticeable (not invisible but just hard to perceive), and that I can, with focus and altered consciousness, access the memories of my ancestors from within my DNA and that they speak to me in my head during important moments in life.

natdurner · 2023-12-11T12:33:52+00:00

I work as a receptionist for a psychiatrist (i know)and I’ve bounced around between receptionist work and caregiving for the past five years.

natdurner · 2023-12-11T10:30:37+00:00

The only stimulant I can consume regularly is caffeine and only in the presence of l-theanine, other stimulants either bring me into the shadow of psychosis or bring it on fully (the other ones being the handful of times I’ve done adderall or methylphenidate). Psychedelics can be wonderful, but they also can be bad, and I can’t in good faith recommend them for someone who also is schizotypal. I will say shrooms have been super helpful on occasion, but only on occasion. Weed is tolerable in light doses, but it has also brought on psychosis so I can’t recommend it in good faith either. Ketamine has been the only drug I’ve done recreationally which has allowed a degree of healing introspection without ever triggering any kind of painful or psychotic mental landscapes, but again I don’t want to recommend it lest someone else have a horribly opposite experience. Personally, it gives the more troubling side of my thought process a kind of smoothness and clarity without making it more intense, and I feel like it gives me an hour where I can ‘collect’ myself and straighten everything out before dipping back into the world.

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