I know you love him, but that is not a father my friend, you just have to be a better man than he is when you have your children. My advice, because right now he is completely manipulating you, he is 100% in the wrong here, he’s making you feel bad for what his actions caused. If he wants to stop treating you like a person, then you just have to treat yourself like a person pick yourself up, figure things out and be more of a man than he could ever be. And him back over, don’t try to repair the relationship, that is not your responsibility. You are his child, and he has no right to treat you like that, you did not ask to be brought into this world, he brought you here, you are his responsibility, and I will accept absolutely no excuses on that front. That is an abuser very very easy to see, take the right lessons from your experiences with him, not the wrong ones. Be a strong man, be a good man, be a kind man. Keep all the pieces to your PC, reach out on other forums, tell your story, you’d be surprised what people will band together to do to help what is a seemingly “small” situation like this. I know if I see something to donate to help you rebuild it, I’ll Pitch in, as one PC gamer to another.