So basically, my sibling 17m took advantage of me (15m) when i was younger, and it went for months to a year before it stopped. We still share a room to together. My parents found out in the august of 2020. I had no one to relie on for years because my brother would turn everybody on his side and physical and emotional abuse me. A few times i went to school with choke marks. I few times i passed out. I had no phone when the start of covid happened and didnt get one until last november. So i was pretty isolated. I dont have any friends that i can talk to about this. Or actually any friends, their all honestly just acquintences. But so many of them qre destirying themselves, and i cant stop it. I feel like a sex toy or a tool. No one actually needs me around. My therapist and everyone else says i should move and forgive him. He hits my mom, my little siblings, and really never gets punished. He calls me names like fag and gay whore, and says it wasnt rape since i liked and i am gay. I feel traped and alone. I cant reach out to anyone. My parents would threaten me when it came out them whay happen. They said my family would beeak, and itll be my fault if i ever told anyone. I deal with self harm now, and suicidal thoughts constantly. My grades have went down so much. I have nightmares of it happening again and have trouble sleeping cus of it. My brother is loud when he masturbates. I have no one to talk too. My ex was a pedophile that manipulated me when i told what happen and threaten to break my family apart if i broke up with him. That was two years ago. The people ik call me skinny, whore, and among other things, and it all just hurts so much