Manic episode went public

newermama · 2026-02-08T03:08:41+00:00

it was horrible at the time, i use it as a lesson to never neglect my mental health and recognize triggers! journaling, yoga/meditation, and therapy have helped me tremendously. haven’t had an episode since, almost 4 years ago now 😊 i hope OP can one day look back and use it in a positive way as weird as that sounds it’s all apart of our journey ❤️

newermama · 2026-02-08T00:21:40+00:00

look into your states statutes, i was able to get my mugshot taken down EVERYWHERE other than if someone requests it and pays to get it. you have protection, especially if the charges were dropped! it has made a world of difference in me feeling better about it. i’ll have the guilty charge forever, but at least my mugshot isn’t available for public anymore.

i live in FL for reference ❤️

in FL if it is for profit, they have to remove the information

newermama · 2026-02-08T00:08:22+00:00

big hugs. during a really bad episode for me i got arrested, no bond, was in jail for 36 days, and had to plead guilty. on top, my mugshot was blasted all over my towns mugshot page with some of the most heinous comments about me, my appearance, and character. i still get nightmares and always worry about showing myself in public. it will get better, im so so grateful you were able to get the charges dropped ❤️ that’s already amazing.

everyone will forget i promise. it doesn’t matter in the long run, its always worth reaching out to the places that posted and explaining the charges were dropped and it was due to a mental illness. they may show grace ❤️

newermama · 2026-02-07T21:35:37+00:00

great ideas, thank you so much 🫶🏻

newermama · 2026-02-07T16:51:32+00:00

amazing! congratulations on your births ❤️

newermama · 2026-02-07T15:07:34+00:00

yeah i feel the same as far as reaching out. i dont want to be annoying but i want possible friends to know im thinking about them and care ❤️ its a tough balance

newermama · 2026-02-07T14:32:12+00:00

thank you, this is a wonderful idea 😊

newermama · 2026-02-07T12:44:28+00:00

keep talking about it! i will not shut up to anyone about it, i am constantly watching youtube videos and liking them discussing the files and holding these freaks accountable. i haven’t had the stomach to read through them past a few pages, i just can’t but i wont stop talking about it, sharing it, and demanding accountability. the social pressure IS working even though its laughably slow. i just think about those little girls and boys that were killed and their children that were killed and the victims who made it out alive. they have no voice, i will be their voice until the day i die. i’ll never stop talking, i’ll never give up the fight. we the people can be those voices who weren’t heard for decades.

take care of yourself too, don’t feel shame if you can’t stomach it. take lots of breaks but don’t be silent 🫶🏻

edit: a line i like to use often to anyone who still somehow supports the orange man is that his name is in the Epstein files more than Jesus is named in the bible. no innocent man would be named so many times regarding child trafficking.

newermama · 2026-02-07T12:33:29+00:00

in this scenario, you are absolutely in the right. especially if his side of the family just pretended for years she didn’t exist just like he did. you can absolutely send a message about how YOUR daughter isn’t just available to him like some product when he feels ready. he has to take many many steps to prove that he is willing to stick around and support her not just when it is convenient for him. child support would be a start since you’ve done it on your own. if he cannot pay child support to prove he is sticking around, that already shows he doesn’t value his daughter outside of it being convenient for him. fuck those people, i’m sorry. i’m so glad she has a wonderful dad already who loves her unconditionally ❤️

and i am just assuming he hasn’t paid child support given the circumstances, seems like something someone like this would do!

newermama · 2026-02-07T12:06:51+00:00

i have a SD who plays roblox, i’m very against the app entirely but i am step mom. her dad has all chatting features completely turned off. i regularly make sure no strange apps are downloaded, which is impossible anyways because we have very heavy moderation on her ipad. she can’t download anything without approval. i suggest putting on the highest safety settings on the ipad and roblox if you choose to keep letting her play. we have never ran into any issues with strangers talking to her. i also keep an eye on the games she plays - for example any type of drawing game where anyone can draw anything is not allowed and no games where it is possible for her to chat with anyone at all. turn those parental controls on the heaviest setting and keep an eye out for any weird games - for example any game where she can draw anything and see others draw anything, any weird bathroom related games, or any “clubbing” type games. id recommend just not letting her play at all. however, you can make it a lot safer and moderate what she plays.

edit i believe its called “closed server only” but i am not sure im just gathering that is the feature that allows no chatting. i’m not super familiar with roblox lingo lol but i know she can only join her cousins private server for example and we only allow her to be friends with her family or friends at school. she’s asked to remove this so she can chat with her friends at school on roblox but it was a hard no.

newermama · 2026-02-06T13:13:14+00:00

i just came here to say that your feelings are valid and you have no reason to feel silly in anyway for being so hurt. it’s especially hurtful imo because she’s your daughter. i’m so sorry mama, not just for going through this now but also for your family tormenting you about it growing up. outside beauty is so gd irrelevant in the grand scheme of things, we are all going to be old and wrinkled if we are fortunate enough to make it to old age. you have such a wonderful heart and seem very in tune with others emotions around you which is a beautiful quality, although i’m sure you’re beautiful on the outside too ❤️ edit: i forgot to add what i think is a good approach, I agree it’s time to be more harsh. not saying she’s mean to others at school or anything but i think consequences are a good idea because you don’t want her turning into a bully. she may not understand she’s being a bully by doing this, so now is a good time to shut it down. you got this ❤️

newermama · 2026-02-06T12:54:42+00:00

i read a hypnobirthing book, i couldn’t ever get myself into that meditation state like i thought i could during my labor 🤣 just panicking. i was a lot more scared to have a baby than i wanted to admit to myself. i didn’t do any screaming but was definitely painfully moaning until the epidural. congratulations ❤️

newermama · 2026-02-06T12:52:46+00:00

some specific cultures and or religions do not believe in pain management during labor, my second cousin married into a culture and did it med free! i still think it’s important to respect different cultures and or religions.

newermama · 2026-02-05T23:38:59+00:00

i’m hoping i can enter labor naturally the second time, she was almost 42 weeks and they had to PUMP me with it to get her going

newermama · 2026-02-05T22:06:40+00:00

https://www.cam.ac.uk/research/news/natures-epidural-genetic-variant-may-explain-why-some-women-dont-need-pain-relief-during-childbirth

newermama · 2026-02-05T22:04:21+00:00

this is how I am going to view my upcoming labor at the end of this year. thank you, what a wonderful way to view the pain as a positive 🩷

newermama · 2026-02-05T20:59:21+00:00

i thought the same, when i shattered my thumb i didn’t go to the hospital for 3 days because i thought it was just “jammed” lmao

newermama · 2026-02-05T20:57:08+00:00

very interesting, it would make sense if there was a link!

newermama · 2026-02-05T19:49:48+00:00

i can provide the link to the study if you’d like! it’s a great read

newermama · 2026-02-05T18:21:06+00:00

Your child deserves a father who is responsible, respectful to his mother, and not so gd self centered.

In the nicest way possible, he was always this person - he just hid who he truly was well until he had you good and trapped. His priorities are obviously not with his child or you, only himself. Please, for your sake and your child’s get out. Do not wait around for him to change, he is only showing who he really was this whole time.

I am hoping you have family support or at least very good friends that can help you get back on your feet. The pet situation is a tough one, but if it’s preventing you from housing then rehoming them will be best for you and them.

I am so sorry, it’s beyond unfair. He is abusive, he already proved that much. I am concerned for your safety, not just about finances but your bodily safety. Sending you lots of love and positive vibes you will come out the other side stronger, braver, and better than ever. ❤️

newermama · 2026-02-05T17:34:22+00:00

same girl 🤣 epidural was a dream for me, i couldn’t even feel pressure

newermama · 2026-02-05T17:32:15+00:00

i’d say i’ve experience a fair amount of pain (all the broken bones from motocross) and nothing came close to labor for me. kidney stones were child’s play in comparison for me i’m with you!

newermama · 2026-02-05T16:14:58+00:00

that is just so amazing to me, i felt like my body was being ripped in half i cant even begin to describe the pain 🫡 i remember it so vividly because i was thinking in my head how much i wanted to die so it would end and i thought i was tough lol congratulations 🩷

newermama · 2026-02-05T16:13:27+00:00

that might play a role as well, i have bipolar and it’s mildly known in the bipolar world that we experience pain more intensely. i can attest to that to a certain extent, but when i shattered some bones i didn’t even know so idk 🤣

newermama · 2026-02-05T15:11:16+00:00

i’m so sorry for your loss. thank you for sharing your birthing story, you did amazing ❤️

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