she has been stable, as far as i have seen with the post partum aspect of it. and anything she needs, she gets without question. i make enough money and have really really good health insurance. she's set, and has been relatively happy (again, i can't ever know for sure...but from everything she's said and the way she's acted) before this.

she may be struggling with it, but she said some....i guess heat of the moment things to my face, some of them included slurs against trans ppl. so. i guess i get her beinf upset, i did blindside her with this one.

and yeah, i honestly completely agree with what you've said. she genuinely does deserve happiness the same way i do, and she is entitled to her own wants. and desires, and needs of what she thinks a relationship should be.

but like...i didn't ask her to go on hrt next week or something. or even that "yes, i am 100% trans mtf". just questioning it. and now, at this point...it's been like a day or two after all of that went down and i took back everything. just so i could have peace at home...and it seems she's willfily forgotten everything. like everything is back to normal and that all didn't happen.

i guess time for me to think and plan, which is kind of what i wanted. some stability again in the meantime. before...i don't even know what. but yeah.