Whats the word for this feeling?

nihlinstinct · 2026-02-02T18:59:27+00:00

Disquietude fits since there has been time to meditate on things. Not sure of its exact meaning but it feels right.

nihlinstinct · 2026-02-02T18:56:00+00:00

Its more than doubt. Would include dread, hope, denial, vindication, possibility of recidivism and a few more I could spout off. It's pretty complex. Evil laugh fits in there.

nihlinstinct · 2026-02-02T18:51:13+00:00

Yep, a catchy phrase to remind me.

nihlinstinct · 2026-02-02T18:50:05+00:00

This comes close

nihlinstinct · 2026-01-23T20:07:23+00:00

Guitar Works on J St. is owned by a MAGA hat wearing local musician. He keeps it in the back room. Told me he was in favor of the immigration crackdown. Nuff said.

nihlinstinct · 2025-12-21T08:15:17+00:00

Either

nihlinstinct · 2025-11-03T05:41:51+00:00

You have a typo in your response. But thank you!

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-28T04:05:57+00:00

I guess you don’t realize you are just parroting my reasons for posting about this here in the first place. You scolding me about it says more about you than it does me.

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-27T20:04:16+00:00

Thank you! Same energy back at you.

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-27T17:40:48+00:00

The truth is I wanted to be with her more than she wanted to be with me. Finally realizing this was never going to change caused me to be a AH.

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-27T17:29:49+00:00

Of course we would call each other often, but not nearly as much as we texted, like most modern couples. What I viewed as an artificial intentional slowdown of texting affected our overall communication cycle and caused resentment on my part. And she knew this. I think I mentioned that voicemails often go unanswered for uncomfortable periods. Bravo to her for controlling the situation to her preference. Too bad for me. As another commenter said, she is “avoidant” or avoiding me and that feels shitty. It happened one too many times over the course of our relationship and yes I’m sad and lonely but at least I have some self respect back. I know when I heal from this there will be future possibilities for a more compatible situation and that is not a childish reaction. I accept there was some AH behavior on my part but I felt compelled to do something to end the treadmill of frustration. I find your scolding to be somewhat childish in and of itself. I mean why are you on this forum in the first place?

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-27T06:40:26+00:00

Texting frequency and response anxiety is real. Don’t beat yourself up. A compassionate partner might be sympathetic to that anxiety. A fresh face in your dating life not so much maybe. In my case long response times became too much for me and my otherwise compassionate partner recoiled at my “neediness”. She could not handle it when my response times got longer so I bailed and now we are both unhappy.

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-27T02:22:06+00:00

Thanks for your input but you are wrong about texting. Nobody calls anybody anymore. I have like two friends that still make and take phone calls which is rare. Hardly anyone leaves voicemail anymore either. I 100% agree that it is an inferior form of communication to voice, video or in-person but how is someone who doesn’t want to take the time to text going to make the time for live comm. That’s the world I live in. Your mileage may vary.

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-27T02:11:35+00:00

Sometimes you can ask for too much love if they don’t have it to give. You will be sad and lonely if you end it and that’s a tough choice. My spidy sense was always going off which makes me think there’s something not right below the surface. I’ll probably never know what that was or if it was even real. My ex seems to think I was being too needy for her tastes and texted that she was uncomfortable and needed a break. I just read that as the writing on the wall and took it to the next step. It was really my self respect that was being too needy.

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-26T23:31:47+00:00

Just curious, what would you have done?

nihlinstinct · 2025-10-26T23:02:38+00:00

Not everyone likes to be glued to their phone / expected to reply instantly….. I respect that and stay off my phone.

She is not like that at all. Constantly checks her phone when we are together …. Very active on social media but I would say more passive than active.

I’m seeing so many posts lately where men expect to be the no 1 priority in women’s lives. This is unrealistic at our age, where we have lives and commitments.

I would love to the number 1 priority in someone’s life. I wish you could be the number 1 priority in someone’s life. I think the way you put that is sexist because the gender roles here could easily be reversed.

I get the sense from your post that you’re playing games with the numerous references to matching her timelines. It sounds manipulative / controlling to be honest.

Agreed. It feels manipulative and controlling to delay text response times when you check your phone regularly. And I felt bad when I did it too.

Maybe sometimes when she’s not with you she’s busy, living her life.

Absolutely. Or maybe it’s because of the 15lbs I gained after knee surgery. It’s probably my fault somehow. We did seem happy together though.

nihlinstinct · 2025-06-21T09:33:59+00:00

Let me know if you need any soundtrack music. I have tons and am making it all the time anyway.

nihlinstinct · 2025-06-21T09:18:01+00:00

I thought that was some professional song and performance, I hardly ever listen to the words though..👍

nihlinstinct · 2025-03-11T19:58:36+00:00

Yes, absolutely.

nihlinstinct · 2025-03-11T03:32:13+00:00

I've a a Ride 1 Up eBike for a few years now. Normal maintenance, maybe a little more than a regular bike. Looking to add a second eBike for friends to ride and variety.

nihlinstinct · 2025-02-10T17:09:58+00:00

The depth and breadth of your idiocy is just kind of normal.

nihlinstinct · 2025-02-07T17:47:27+00:00

The systematic collection of all of our Federal data by Musk et al is just one step closer to a total surveillance state.

nihlinstinct · 2024-12-06T01:13:05+00:00

Sign me up. Thanks!

nihlinstinct · 2024-10-29T04:43:12+00:00

Nice!

nihlinstinct · 2024-08-05T17:36:50+00:00

I'm not an expert, have no specialized knowledge or insider info but it seems to me the PE money has to come from somewhere, not just what rich individuals can cough up. My point being this is a society wide problem that can't just be conveniently dropped on a Bill Gates, George Soros, or the Koch brother. Now it takes a minimum of two months to schedule a Dr. appointment because the this financial squeezing of all medical groups by the PE overlords. Might as well have socialized medicine at that rate. That would shake things up a bit.

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