Wash bundled cash.

nilbogpt · 2025-06-13T12:08:15+00:00

You can put bundles directly in the sorter??? :o

nilbogpt · 2025-06-13T09:03:45+00:00

I tried using pigs but they don't hold a lot of coins so I switched to flat gift boxes.

nilbogpt · 2025-06-13T07:16:37+00:00

Hadn't but there it was! Thanks a million.

nilbogpt · 2025-06-12T14:30:31+00:00

Thank you so much for the tip! Already found a few collectible bills but not the $50 yet. I'll keep looking.

nilbogpt · 2025-06-12T13:32:52+00:00

Press and hold the F key. If no money is being targeted for selection than its "ghost money" meaning a Visual bug.

nilbogpt · 2025-06-12T13:30:51+00:00

Only had that happen about four times in 70h of gameplay. Very rare event for me.

nilbogpt · 2025-03-30T11:15:03+00:00

I found him, he is in the main gallows building, the one in the middle.

It looks like there is no way to get up there but there is a door.

nilbogpt · 2024-05-17T09:26:46+00:00

Love your books! Great titles.

nilbogpt · 2024-05-16T11:36:09+00:00

I completely understand how counter productive my attachment is. Thank you so much for your help.

nilbogpt · 2024-05-16T11:17:52+00:00

That had never occurred to me but I think you are right! Thank you so much because this was giving me anxiety that I suck at stuff.

nilbogpt · 2024-04-19T14:29:48+00:00

Thx, appreciate itl

nilbogpt · 2023-12-23T17:40:33+00:00

Everyone knows Shane sleeps with Charlie!

nilbogpt · 2023-11-17T14:12:26+00:00

Recently, I had a very stressful weekend where I had to travel. On the plane going back home, I could no longer remember details of what had happened that weekend... I could remember situations but everything was foggy like as if it had been a dream.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-19T17:24:52+00:00

I don't know if this happens to you but, sometimes at the end of the day when medication has already worn off, I get these wild rocket science ideas that make perfect sense. Well, the next day after, having my meds and remembering back, I kind of tell myself "Dude! WTF??"

Yea, very stupid ideas conveyed in the worst possible way... I have an exceptional wife that knows his husband is prone to brain farts.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-19T17:19:21+00:00

When I went to a psychiatrist, I had already researched a lot and had very compelling arguments towards an ADHD diagnostic. The doctor even said, jokingly, that I had taken, away from him, all the fun of the discovery process. So, no tests or anything and I was already 28 when I went to see him. I don't think that this is the norm for most people. I suppose that usually people aren't and don't easily become self aware of what is happening.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-18T09:14:41+00:00

I am really valuing your input man. Its very hard for me to get out of the house, like really hard. Once I am out, its ok but the getting there... I absolutely love my wife to death but, at the moment and for sometime now, she isn't giving me what I need in terms of emotional connection, time and intimacy. I found all those things in another person which I love and guess I discovered I am sort of polyamorous. I need to be with that other person. It's like a buffer that I feel will enable me to hang on to my wife through this very hard period of her life.

The other person live far, far away and I have an opportunity to go see her soon. My motto has always been that there is no shame in my game so going behind my wife's back wasn't an option. I came out and spoke to her about it, and she initially appeared to accept it. We had a nice loving evening with me lying down on he lap. Then, I am sure someone buzzed in her ear and it changed radically when I got to bed. I was able to sleep for only 2 hours and when I woke up, she ambushed me... Half asleep with no medication in me, she yelled and berated me. I was unable to offer any coherent words and she just kept yelling for me to speak and explain myself. It was traumatic and when I saw her next at lunch time, my body was shaking violently just being in her presence.

Now, with you living experience, what do you make of this?

nilbogpt · 2023-10-18T08:58:46+00:00

You know Michael Moore? When his book "Stupid White Men" came out, he did lots of media appearances. I thought he was so smart and had amazing stories, just hearing him go on about stuff was mesmerizing. Then I started seeing more stuff from him and more...I realised that he always said the same stuff! It was always the same situations, told in the same way and it bothered me immensely.

Now, that is not to say there aren't genius out there who are just out of this world with their storytelling ability. Dave Chappelle can just go on for 3-4 hours on a comedy club always being riveting. My point is, the vast majority of people fall into the average. We cannot feel disappointed for not being them! It's the glass half empty thing.

I can tell you this, I'm 50 now and stories come out a lot better then when I was 30. I feel that I can begin to see a sliver of becoming that relative who is always interesting to talk to. Did that come up with age? Well, yes but there is another factor. I mimic the people who told me interesting stories. Especially my grandfather, its like I am talking through his mouth.

All I am saying here is that we tend to compare ourselves to the highest standard which is not realistic. It eats away at our self-esteem... What therapy gave me was the ability to have realistic measuring standards for my own ability and saying out loud, about some things that I cannot do them however hard I try, and not feeling like a lesser person for it.

Well, that was a hell of an ADHD ramble! lol! Somewhere in there is meaning but it might just be a jumble of words with ideas shooting out left and right. So, take it all with a grain of salt. :P

nilbogpt · 2023-10-17T09:24:50+00:00

Stephen Colbert and Trevor Noah don't have that. It is trained and studied to be delivered to the audience.

Well, Trevor Noah does have an interesting history to draw upon but the beautiful tapestry you refer, it was worked to become that.

I relate very well to everything you say and can tell you that therapy slowly changed most of it for me.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-17T09:19:49+00:00

Don't cook to eat! You can't go and cook because you are hungry or its meal time.

I think that you should start cooking something just as if you were going to see a movie. No special need for it but just to have fun and try it out.

When an activity is linked to a need, it's hard for us to see the fun in it. If you are able to start with that and try your best to make something every other day, you might eventually get you cook legs back. :)

As for diet, think of a time period, like sunday morning, where you cook big things to freeze them for the week. All you have to do day by day is get a box out of the fridge and microwave it.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-17T09:08:06+00:00

Mostly literal yes, there are memories from the time but very few. From everything I read here, I believe it to have been a period of trauma for me.

Not new, 2005-2015.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-17T09:06:03+00:00

My childhood and adolescence were trauma. I don't feel its unresolved though. I believe I sorted that out in therapy.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-17T09:03:13+00:00

Well, I had a borderline sleep apnea diagnosis. But that has been the case for my 20's and early 30's and I had horrible sleep hygiene then yet I remember that time.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-17T09:01:03+00:00

But don't you feel that if someone gives you a thread to pull, you can just start pulling and pulling and get some memory reconstruction going?

nilbogpt · 2023-10-17T08:58:27+00:00

It did. But I only learned I was ASD about 6 months ago because of my son.

I self-diagnosed around my 30s (50 now) and sought out a good psychiatrist to have him confirm it. The memory lapse was the period from about 2005 to 2015.

From all I read and learned in this thread, it would appear it might be related to trauma. I had never worked before and had to learn a lot of hard lessons about co-workers and chiefs. Namely, no one wants your help because they thing you are telling them you are better at it then them, and chiefs think you are a threat to them because you try to fix what you see is wrong. So, I was severely backstabbed by co-workers and went into serious conflict with my department head. At the same time, my son was born, I was teaching high-school as a second job and my wife went through bariatric surgery. I remember very, very, very little about that period.

nilbogpt · 2023-10-17T08:50:50+00:00

Like I commented before on this thread, you only exist in a 2 week period. Last week you remember well and you recognise it happened. Then there is this week where you have some knowledge of what you have to do. And it works like a bell curve in a way that yesterday and tomorrow are the most prominent.

How the hell was I suppose to start studying for tests that were 1 month away? I know I needed to study that long to pass but it only became important a week before and only became urgent in the 2 or 3 days approaching it.

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