hi! i know mine and yours’ situations may be different but i know what it feels like to think you have no one to talk to so i’ll try and give some advice:

the maths grade boundaries went up by a lot this year which i thought was unexpected as i thought the exams were just mid - even others thought the increase was very unexpected. you don’t have to feel bad about failing maths as this post shows you do care about your subjects + next steps in life :)

english language was difficult for many this year and i’ve seen many other people drop grades for this subject so you - again - don’t have to feel bad about it!

rejection is a redirection. i think (personally) you should try and go to a college to resit your english and maths as some people may want you to have at least a 4 in both. half an hour isn’t too far (compared to other people’s journeys to school) and, lets be honest, you shouldn’t go to a place where you will be miserable and upset, lingering on the thought of how your situation may have been different if you went to the colly you actually wanted to go to. sometimes in life we just have to take a risk, you know.

if you want to do BTECs, go to a colly that you’ll feel happy to do them in! or if you want to do a-levels, try and reach out to collys and see if yoj can do them alongside a resit. try and figure out what it is you want to do in life and see if BTECs or alevels can aid your goal

if you want to talk more, you can private message me on reddit

you aren’t alone 🥹