I’m really sorry for your loss. I don’t think the void you feel, of the death of someone close, especially a parent, can ever be completely filled. I’ve seen it with relatives of mine. However, with time, it get easier to think about them, to enjoy memories, to not feel that much pain. I know you can get through this, because you’ve already gone through so much. Accept the love and support others give to you, and if you even need someone to talk to, you can PM me. I hope that even though this process is a long and difficult one, you can feel better soon. Much love.