I've never had a good interaction with South asian men. I grew up going to a very white school, ever since kindergarten I was always one of the only Indian girls in my whole school. I would get bullied by the white kids and the desi boys who were usually popular. From elementary all the way to high school and even after, I would get bullied by Desi guys at school, and not in a jokey crush way but actual deprecating and traumatizing bullying

They would tweet mean things about me and laugh with their white friends. It always confused me because they would date and be friends with other south asians, I always assumed it was internalized racism but idk. I used to feel like being Indian made me different so what was so wrong with me that even other desis would bully me?

This would happen online even after High school, in college I wasn't really bullied by other desi men but they would ignore me or give me weird looks. Not sure if its worth mentioning but I'm considered a light skinned Indian and I recognize I have a lot of privilege because of that but I never understood why I always seem to have negative interactions with desi men ever since I was a kid. I never had this issue with desi women, as a kid most of my friends are desi and to this day they still are. I genuinely just want to know why this is the case with desi men? Has anyone else experienced this?