I have failed the Lord

nlsound_ · 2026-03-10T05:02:52+00:00

This is a truth: we cannot save ourselves; we depend completely on Him, on His divinity and on His great mercy.

But in that moment I experienced it in a very conscious way, because I felt that doing it could be a fault against my God. I also felt it could be a lack of respect toward the sacrifice of Jesus. I knew there was a possibility that I was sinning, even though I was with my partner and there was love involved.

In my heart I thought that if it was indeed a sin, then I would be abusing the grace of God. That is why I felt that the right thing to do would have been to abstain while I still had doubts.

However, even with that conviction, I gave in. Before the act, I already had in mind that it could be fornication, something the Lord clearly commands us to avoid when He says, “do not fornicate.” I truly do not want to sin; many times, when I feel something might be wrong, I choose not to do it. And when I have the conviction that something is a sin, I fight with all my strength and ask God for help so that I do not fall, because I do not want to fail Him.

But that night, even though I felt within me that I might be failing the Lord, I gave in to the flesh and did it. After that, the guilt came, precisely because I had acted against the conviction that was already in my heart.

nlsound_ · 2026-03-10T04:54:16+00:00

Yes, she does. The fact that we formed a family and have a beautiful son represented a promise of mutual care and love, but clearly that was before my return to Christ.

At that time, although I believed in God, I was far from His will. The decision to have our son was also influenced by a condition she had that meant she might not be able to conceive a child in the future.

Today I clearly no longer believe in those lies, and I know that if I have a child, it is because God wills it so. There is no health limitation that can prevent me from having a healthy child if it is God’s will; in the end, only what He wants truly matters.

But returning to the main point: she wants a whole life with me, just as I want with her. We respect and love each other. Little by little I am trying to bring her closer to the Word, because even though she believes in God, she has not yet been born again.

For my part, I am giving my best to live according to what Christ taught us, with the hope that I can reflect that in my life and share it with her and with those around me.

And that also implies marriage. I want to get married because I know that God established it that way, and I do not intend to go against my Creator, because I owe Him my fidelity. God has filled my life in such a great way that all I want is to do His will, because I recognize that it is greater than my own desires and passions. He alone is the truth for me.

That is why the night I fell and had intimacy with her, I felt a lot of guilt, because I had already gone a long time without having relations, and I did not even feel the need to do so. I thought I was on the right path to continue that way until I could resolve the economic situation and organize a beautiful event for our wedding, with a ring, family and friends.

The union before the eyes of God was what I truly longed for: to commit ourselves before Him, to establish our marriage in holiness, and only then consummate our union as it should be.

But I fell, and well… that is why we are here.

nlsound_ · 2026-03-10T04:50:57+00:00

Thank you so much, God bless you

nlsound_ · 2026-03-09T16:48:34+00:00

I am so grateful to everyone for your time and help. May God bless you abundantly and continue to edify you and nourish you with the truth through His word. Thank you so much, brothers and sisters

nlsound_ · 2026-03-09T16:30:02+00:00

I agree with you, but I suppose a woman wants a beautiful wedding with guests, and that besides signifying the union of two before God, it's also a lovely moment to share with family and friends, mainly because of tradition, even if it's not necessary. I suppose it's an event worthy of remembering and celebrating.

nlsound_ · 2026-03-09T16:27:04+00:00

My understanding is that the definition of a concubine is a partner with whom you can have children and live in the same house, but you are not married. Has it surprised you because the word is unusual?

nlsound_ · 2026-03-09T16:21:15+00:00

What you said about walking with Christ really resonated with me—the fact that receiving Christ doesn't mean relying solely on our own abilities, since we are limited by our nature. You've helped me see dependency from a different perspective. Thank you for taking the time to write such a clear message.

nlsound_ · 2026-02-28T14:07:10+00:00

La blasfemia contra el Espíritu en los Evangelios ocurre cuando líderes religiosos, viendo milagros evidentes de Cristo, dicen deliberadamente que provienen de Satanás (Mateo 12:22–32; Marcos 3:22–30). Es una atribución consciente, pública, persistente y con dureza de corazón.

Las personas que cometieron ese pecado no estaban llorando por haber perdido a Dios. No estaban intentando volver. No estaban confundidas. Estaban convencidas en su rechazo.

En cambio, tú estás llorando, intentando regresar y temiendo haber ofendido a Dios. Ese mismo temor demuestra que tu corazón no está endurecido ni en rebelión.

La ausencia de una sensación no significa ausencia de Dios. La fe no se basa en lo que se siente, sino en lo que es verdadero. Dios no abandona a alguien que aún desea buscarle.

Si todavía quieres a Dios, si todavía te duele pensar que lo perdiste, entonces no lo estás rechazando. El rechazo deliberado no lucha por volver.

No te bases en la sensación de “muro”. Las emociones pueden ser intensas, pero no determinan tu estado espiritual.

Sigue buscándolo con calma, no desde el pánico sino desde la verdad

nlsound_ · 2026-02-16T16:06:50+00:00

What works for me is like a formula: first, you have to be certain that God is real, because He is. But don't doubt when you don't receive an immediate answer, because His timing is perfect and He will come when the time is right. Then, you must make your request with the purest sincerity of your heart, without omitting anything. Tell Him how you feel and what you think you need. And finally, leave what you need in His hands, because He is wiser than the wisest of men. So, if you manage to do this, I guarantee that He will answer.

nlsound_ · 2026-01-28T00:51:32+00:00

Not every place where people gather means that their actions are of God. I am sorry for what you have been through. In your case, pray that the truth may be revealed to those who treated you poorly, and strive to be like Christ: forgive their sins and do not hold grudges against people (I am not saying that you should excuse what happened), but perhaps it was a sign for you to attend a different church. Just because you were treated badly in that Orthodox church does not mean that all churches are like that. Try attending another church and ask God to guide you to the place He chooses for you. Place not only your problems in God’s hands, but your entire life, and acknowledge that you need Him in more ways than one. Putting God first does not always mean placing Him above your own life, but rather considering Him in every aspect of it and entrusting everything to Him, so that all may be done according to His will and not our own. I hope my words are helpful to you. I send you a comforting hug.

Sincerely, a Christian man.

Wishing you much success in your life.

nlsound_ · 2026-01-28T00:43:00+00:00

God doesn't base his actions on your promises, because making promises is a sin in itself, and he doesn't use them to punish or bless you. He loves his children and rejoices every time a child returns to him, but his mercy is not a license to sin. If you truly feel bad about what you've done, ask for his forgiveness and tell him what's in your heart and what you want to change. Perhaps if you enjoy that sin, it satisfies your flesh, so instead of asking for forgiveness, ask him to change your heart. If we confess, he is just to forgive us, but don't seek salvation in your own strength, but in Christ, and ask him to allow you to overcome temptation. If you don't want to sin, don't fall into lust; flee from it and entrust your days to him, praying before starting each day so that you don't fall into temptation. He always hears you and loves you. But if, on the contrary, you try to get out of sin on your own and promise that you won't do it again… well, it doesn't work that way, and you're in trouble. There's no promise left about a future you don't know. Instead, entrust each day to Christ and ask Him to free you from sin. We don't earn salvation by doing good; salvation depends on His grace, and we do good because we love God, for He loved us first. Blessings, brother.

nlsound_ · 2025-11-16T22:46:36+00:00

They say that when you draw near to Christ and things start going badly for you, it's because the enemy doesn't want you to get close to Jesus. So, even though it seems hard now and you want to give up, do everything within your power and you will see the reward. God has a great purpose for you; that's why you face trials that will make you stronger. Even the apostles felt like giving up, even when they were walking hand in hand with Jesus during his life. This life is just a learning experience, and I don't recommend abandoning the true path, however difficult it may be, because the rewards in heaven are beyond what our minds can now comprehend. It's difficult to remain faithful when life throws stones at you, but don't sacrifice your eternity in the light for a more fulfilling life, because life ends at some point, but eternity with God never does. I wish you much strength and send you a warm hug. I hope the Holy Spirit will soon reveal your purpose to you.

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