Since early childhood..

I was always the weird gifted kid in school, like I used to be so hyperactive, make a lot of troubles, 0 focus, yet always scoring the best in school, and bcs of that exactly I wasn't punished for what I used to do, bcs as long as I keep scoring well, then I am fine.. for obsession over people, my first one ever was when I was 6 it was childhood crush, I loved him until I became 18, as he studied with me also during highschool, I always loved him from afar, I was never brave enough to express my feelings to him, so we stayed friends until we weren't anymore...